I am a negative person with one foot stuck in the past and the other stuck in the future. As a result I have few real friends and low self-confidence. My number one goal before returning to college is to drastically change my outlook on life so I can raise my confidence and to gain and keep long lasting friendships. To make this change I am pushing for a more positive attitude and to get my feet out of the past and future so I can lock them in the present. So far I have been practicing yoga, doing meditation exercises and a boat load of online research on what I can do to become a genuinely happy person.So far so good, but I have a long way to go. Living in the moment, meditation and the use of psychedelic drugs are topics that often come up when people talk about their journey to a profound happiness, especially in this community. I know there are many ways and drugs to achieve happiness, but I am really interested in the experiences and changes you have received through living in the moment, meditating and particularly the use of DMT. So tell me of your experiences. How have they helped you? And what tips and advice can you give me on living in the moment, meditation and on experiencing DMT or any psychedelic of that matter?
Best thing that ever happened to me was getting lost in the weird section of youtube and watching amateur documentaries on things that are pretty much taboo or really uncomfortable to talk to average people about. I found out how fucked the world really is (financial system, government, corporations, etc). This caused me to feel depressed for a while but then i found things on spirituality, meditation and DMT and it completely outweighed those negatives and taught me that everything revolves around the mind. After all, your thoughts control reality. I have been fascinated with the idea of DMT for about a year now and i finally think my mind is ready for it. This comes after an extensive amount of reading articles and trip reports, listening to Joe Rogan talk about it, etc. I feel like DMT will help you realize that you’re nothing in this universe and the problems you have are therefore less than nothing. Making it easier to let go.
Anyways, search “The Freedom Movie” in youtube and decide whether you wanna watch both the first one and the second one or just watch the second one straight out. The second one is by far one of the sickest videos on youtube in my opinion. The end part is just woahh.
… Then go checkout some spirit science’s version of the history of the planet ;)
On with your journey :)
@trutheyes, Hey, thanks for your post. I feel I can really relate to this. Today I am no master of happiness, quite bipolar actually alot of the time. I do feel that I am making progress, and I have great friends today. First of all, this has become alot easier simply with age. I find that alot of my problem was that I was hanging around the wrong people, and in the wrong place. If something doesn’t feel right, figure out pieces of the puzzle to move around. Confidence is tough, but without it, what can we accomplish? The ego is what tells us that we are not good enough, etc. confidence is actually what will allow us to use our full potential. Easier said than done!
The use of psychedelics to unlock inner wisdom is insanely powerful, but should come secondary. The real changes should be happening in so called ‘real’ life. I havn’t tried DMT yet, but I find psychedelics all take you to the same place, by taking a different path. They show us how infinite and subjective life is, and also how nothing matters. We let everything have so much value but when in reality, all you need is yourself and the gift to experience life. Having questions in mind is a good idea. Hope this helps!
For the past 3 months I’ve been living by the moment, and it’s not easy. I quit my job and stopped caring about how I was perceived by friends and family. I forwarded time to the knowledge quest and experimenting with what I am. It was humiliating at first, opening myself to judgement and failure. But something amazing happened as I let go of everything that defined me: the law of attraction took over and synchronicity became apparent everywhere.
So I’m beating down this spiritual path too, and kicking up the same flags like DMT, meditation, and other shaman/guru things. About 11mo. ago I tried dmt for the first time and have done it dozens of times since, but there’s still no way to accurately describe it. Ironically last night’s journey was perhaps the most profound because I could see it in pictures. Way too often my mind is anxious, excited or distracted when approaching and experiencing the dmt. Do it only when you feel called to do so. I’ve learned that you get as much out of the trip as you put into it. Meditating to calm your mind and set intentions is the best way to prepare yourself. Let go of all your expectations/desires/worries; this will leave your mind in a state of pure awareness. Hang on to that consciousness as you rip into the dmt, it’s your golden ticket to having a vivid experience.
Excerpt from The Teachings of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda…
Fear-The first enemy of a man of knowledge
The Shaman Don Juan Matus – “When A man starts to learn, he is never clear about his objectives. His purpose is faulty; his intent is vague. He hopes for rewards that will never materialize for he knows nothing of the hardships of learning.””He slowly begins to learn-bit by bit at first, then in big chunks. And his thoughts soon clash. What he learns is never what he pictured, or imagined, and so he begins to be afraid. Learning is never what one expects. Every step of learning is a new task and the fear the man is experiencing begins to mount mercilessly, unyieldingly. His purpose becomes a battlefield.””And thus he has stumbled upon the first of his natural enemies: Fear! A terrible enemy-treacherous, and difficult to overcome. It remains concealed at every turn of the way, prowling, waiting. And if the man terrified in it’s presence runs away, his enemy will have put an end to his quest.”
Castaneda-“What will happen to the man if he runs away in fear?”
Juan Matus- “Nothing happens to him except that he will never learn. He will never become a man of knowledge. He will perhaps be a bully or a harmless scared man; at any rate he will be a defeated man. His first enemy will have put an end to his cravings.”
-Castanada “And what can one do to overcome fear?”
-Juan Matus “The answer is very simple. He must not run away. He must defy his fear and in spite of it he must take the next step in learning, and the next, and the next. He must be fully afraid and yet he must not stop. That is the rule! And a moment will come when his first enemy retreats. The man begins to feel sure of himself. His intent becomes stronger. Learning is no longer a terrifying task. When this joyful moment comes, the man can say without hesitation that he has defeated his first natural enemy.
-Cataneda “does it happen all at once, Don Juan, or little by little?”
-Juan Matus “It happens little by little, and yet the fear is vanquished suddenly and fast.”
-Cataneda “But won’t the man be afraid again if something new happens to him?”
-Juan Matus “No. because once a man has vanquished his fear, he is free from it for the rest of his life because instead of fear, he has acquired clarity -a clarity of mind which erases fear. By then a man knows his desires; he knows how to satisfy those desires. He can anticipate new steps in learning, and a sharp clarity surrounds everything. The man feels that nothing is concealed.
I’m continuing to read the book and learn about the next 3 enemies: clarity, power, and old age. I’ve also been downloading Alan Watts audio into my head every chance I get. I’d recommend Lao Tzu’s: Tao Te Ching. I think everyone has their own teachers depending on where you are on your path. They’ve been my best references to the Truth. I hope some of this helps you.
@iggy316, I know exactly what you mean by the weird section of you tube. I did that and even though those videos made me angry, frustrated and depressed they were also what drew me into reaching for something more spiritual to not only get me out of this rut, but also help the people around me. I tried to talk to people, convince them and make them realize what is really happening in the world, but it ended with me getting super frustrated and them wanting to avoid another confrontation with me. I cannot help other people until I find peace within myself. I watched both of the videos and they are really enlightening. They have given me hope in my journey and to the outcome of the human species. Thank you :)
@rickvonstar, It is metaphorical. I just spend too much time worrying about what has been done and said in the past and how it affects my future. It’s hard for me to just stop and think in the present. Living in the past and worrying about the future does nothing but increase my negativity.
I don’t think you have to do any drug to feel in the moment, because you are that moment. Most of the stuff I read on dmt is the person being blasted into an unknown place. and them coming back with the experience only the user has. I believe the only reason why we do drugs(psychedelic) is to remind ourselves of something long ago that we have learned but can not remember.