finding my meaning

Every day I struggle with life and my mind. I am recovering from depression, but even though I am doing better I feel like I am not doing what I should be with my life. I hate going to work, and school is fine only when I actually learn something. I always search for new knowledge and input, but right now I feel so stuck. I also wish to create, but due to lack of motivation and energy I find this very hard. Also, I do not know where to begin. I have thought about starting a blog, writing a book and painting, but I lose faith in myself and feel stupid after a while. I feel embarrased. I guess this is a shot in the dark, but if anyone has any tips for me, please leave them here. 

February 8, 2018 at 12:27 pm
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Freyzi (3) (@freyzi) 1 week, 5 days ago ago

Hey,
Thanks for the post.

I have bin in your shoes I think, Its hard to figure out where you want to be or go in this life. 
After all, its a fkn crazy world and we’re just being groomed to play along. That fucks you up in my opinion. 
What direction I would recommend is financial freedom and letting go of mental and material liabilities that hold you back from that.

If you do really like to create I suggest you create a strong base for life, low cost and simple.
Wake up early, eat well, dont do stuff that fuck up your body, read, listen and take in information that grows you and skip what dulls you.
For financial base I’d recommend where I’ve started: Rich dad, Poor dad, im on my 4rth book now.

If you cut your life down minimize and optimize set your self a goal it should not take to long.

When you can feel that the goal of total financial freedom is with in your grasp and let that feeling change your thought’s and mind with out losing your self to the materiel or worldly temptations, things will become even more easy and fun in this life.  
The most fun part to me is help other people, If you can find that as well your on a good path in life that wont stop growing.  

Hope this can help,  

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J. (0) (@jennaydoesntloveyou) 1 week, 4 days ago ago

Hey there, I see it’s been two days and no one has replied yet, so I’ll try to give you tips as best as I can.

I too have been struggling with the things you’ve mentioned and definitely recognize myself in what you wrote. Here are some things I think are important and helpful reminders.

First of all, it’s supposed to be fun. You don’t do something because you feel that you should or that “others do it so well and so easily”. So don’t pressure yourself, sweetheart. Just give something a shot. It doesn’t matter if you don’t end up liking it, or only paint once and then don’t do it again for another few months. I think too often in this world we think that we have to succeed at something right away. We set the bars for ourselves extremely high, and put ourselves down if it isn’t the way we wanted it to be. 

Often I find that small changes in routine give me more “life”. Sometimes we get too caught up in doing those every day things and we lose ourselves in it. We end up feeling hollow and used, and don’t have the time for fun. So try to change up a few tiny details about your day that make you feel better. Buy a little plant for yourself and put it in your room, and take care of it, watch it grow. 

Talk with others. I’ve found this to be one of the hardest but also most valuable things. See how I didn’t say “talk to others”? Talk with them. Open up to each other, even if it’s nothing life changing. We’re all just looking for someone that makes us feel comfortable with who we are. 

You said you don’t feel like you’re doing what you should with your life. Here’s a tip that has helped me a lot throughout time. It really saved my ass (I also often lack motivation and energy.) First, determine 5 longterm goals that are important to YOU. Take your time with that. Do you want to develop more meaningful relationships? Travel more? Etc. Whatever it is, write it down. Get a notebook. Then, set one goal for every month. “This month I want to make a painting”. Good. Then go ahead and set a goal for the week; e.g. get the utensils you need, think of a motive you want to paint. Then every night before bed, write a goal for the next day. Again, the goals don’t have to be big, you just have to do them. They can be as small as waking up in the morning and counting 5 things that you are grateful for. 

Also, what has helped me a lot with anxiety issues was giving myself 20 minutes a day for worrying about stuff in the evening. Whatever stressful things happen during the day, just ban those negative thoughts from your head until that set time of 20 minutes in the evening. The rest of the time, try to focus on something better. We people don’t function well on stressful thoughts, that’s super important.

There’s more stuff I’m forgetting about. So if you wanna talk about anything, just send me a message. Oh and also, don’t forget to do a small celebration whenever you achieve any goal. It’ll motivate you to keep it up

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