Today has to be one of the most difficult days I have experienced. Alone on Christmas without the man I love. I find myself fighting back the tears, trying to swallow away the lump in my throat and ignoring the ache in my heart.
I went for a walk today and thought about how I’d spent last Christmas with my ex. It made me a little sad, but the fact of the matter is that it was just another day.
Sure, there’s nothing wrong with turning Christmas into something fun, but you really shouldn’t try and instill a greater emphasis on it when it comes to these matters.
It’s perfectly normal to miss someone who was a huge part of your life, but it’s important to remember that them not being there doesn’t ruin it.
I know of a family who lost one of their sons several years ago. They would play a game of cricket after lunch between the cousins and the uncles every Christmas, and while they were missing someone very dear to them, the game did go on today.
Just remember that your game must go on as well :)