Profile picture of Jonathan Toniolo

Jonathan Toniolo 429

(486)M active 3 years, 7 months ago
  • Posted on (UTC-4)



  • 2016-07-11 @ 02:21:52

    Thanks for sharing! Have you looked into the work of Stan Grof by chance? He has some interesting (but controversial) things to say about birth trauma that could pertain to your situation.

    “The complex of emotional and biological phenomena experienced during birth could represent a very natural and logical matrix for all future psychopathology. This is obvious at least for several important facets of this experiential complex. Intense anxiety would be due to a high degree of survival threat and pain associated with the birth situation. Aggression amounting to the point of biological fury seems to be a natural reaction to threat and prolonged frustration.

    This situation could also provide a natural basis for Freud’s understanding of depression as aggression turned against the individual. The closed system would prevent any external manifestations of aggression and transform it into the experience of depression. The tremendous amount of neuronal impulses that were generated by the emergency situation and could not reach the periphery, could be stored in closed neuronal circuits and account in the future for experiences of excessive tension, aggressive outbursts, impulsive behavior or even belated seizure-like muscular discharges. The helplessness of the situation of the child confronted with brutal and elemental forces of birth could represent the deepest basis for future inferiority.”

    The Medical Gaze: Why Depression Should Not Be Reduced To Chemical Imbalance

  • 2016-07-11 @ 02:03:43

    Glad to hear it resonated, Cathy!

    The Medical Gaze: Why Depression Should Not Be Reduced To Chemical Imbalance

  • 2016-05-13 @ 02:46:29

    @egotizt could you try rewording that?

    Spiritual Bypassing: How Spirituality Sabotaged My Growth

  • 2016-05-10 @ 00:45:21

    They’re obviously not the only manifestations, but they’re certainly big ones.

    “In the world of addiction studies there is a saying, ‘Emotional repression underlies all addiction.’ This simply means that repressed feelings or emotions such as hurt, grief, despair, guilt, denial, hate, regret, rejection, resentment, shame, etc. that do not have a healthy outlet can often lead a person to become addicted to drugs, alcohol, or something else entirely.”

    Repressed Memory: What Substance Abuse is Helping You Hide

    Spiritual Bypassing: How Spirituality Sabotaged My Growth

  • 2016-05-07 @ 02:33:54

    Thanks! This is embarrassing to say, but I actually haven’t been able to find the exact episode. I can’t remember who the guest was either :/ It’s roughly a 10 minute spiel within the interview and I want to say it was from the beginning of 2015. I’ll keep looking, but if you find it first, please do share here!

    Spiritual Bypassing: How Spirituality Sabotaged My Growth

  • 2016-05-07 @ 02:21:03

    Thank you for sharing! Indeed a very powerful story.

    Spiritual Bypassing: How Spirituality Sabotaged My Growth

  • 2016-05-02 @ 05:03:46

    Hey nico,

    Thanks for reading :)

    Well, it mainly affected how I would respond in conversation. I mentioned as an example how I would constantly try to appear as peaceful as possible, even when it went against my intuitive reactions to situations or things people said.

    During peak experiences of feeling deeply in touch with my “higher” self, I noticed how easy and peaceful it was to talk to others. And I think in a kind of desperate “fake-it-till-you-make-it” attempt to get back to that place, I began approaching certain interactions in the image of an enlightened person.

    Although, sometimes this superficial peacefulness turned into what I now consider to be a form of “competitive spirituality” (deflecting responsibility, ” _____ isn’t as enlightened as me”, etc.).

    In sum, I wasn’t reacting authentically in conversation. Hope this helps to clarify :)

    Spiritual Bypassing: How Spirituality Sabotaged My Growth

  • 2015-10-08 @ 03:06:35

    ah, good point.

    Happiness Comes from Giving and Helping, Not Buying and Having

  • 2015-07-22 @ 13:45:41

    Hear hear… another great post, Jordan. That second to last paragraph really resonated, especially this part: “But what if people are content to play that game? What if they’re happy, like the Sisyphus in the comic? What then? Should they want to snap out of it? And how can you ever be certain you’ve broken out of the hollow chase and aren’t just pursuing a different kind recognition, a more subtle accolade?”

    21st-Century Sisyphus: Brilliant Comic Asks if Your Life is Meaningless

  • 2015-06-30 @ 16:16:44

    This was fantastic. Thanks for sharing!

    Photographer Ryan Muirhead Talks Depression, Creativity, and What it Means to Be Human

  • 2015-06-20 @ 06:23:41

    So glad you got around to reading this and especially glad you shared it here!

    Drugs and the Meaning of Life — Sam Harris

  • 2013-11-01 @ 23:12:39

    Yes! I was wondering if that was the book responsible for this post!

    How Your Thoughts Program Your Cells

  • 2013-10-27 @ 21:29:58

    martijn, if you look up any one of these books on amazon, all the rest will pop up under “customers who viewed this item also viewed”….yeah, you deserve a personal thank you from amazon for directing so many people to their site haha also, do you know of any other site we can get the first three for a cheaper price? they’re hella expensive on amazon.

    5 Mind-Blowing Books That Are Worth The Struggle To Read

  • 2013-05-20 @ 16:49:40

    I also agree that not everyone who disagrees is an ignorant troll. But it seems rather obvious that he has never tried “whatever you drank” and thus why I consider his statement ignorant. Anyways, Mr. Rudder, please read Martijn’s post. It will bring your assumptions to light.

    Ayahuasca: The Humbling Path to Truth

  • 2013-05-20 @ 12:13:50

    I smell an ignorant troll!

    Ayahuasca: The Humbling Path to Truth

  • 2012-11-11 @ 12:43:09

    @lulamae, RIGHT!?

    The Dalai Lama Answers A Question