We are only what we know, and I wished to be so much more than I was, sorely.
How lazily "experts" dismiss what they fail to understand!
You say you're 'depressed' - all i see is resilience. You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn't mean you're defective - it just means you're human.
The healthy can't understand the emptied, the broken.
...there ain't no journey that don't change you some.
And only as you gasp your dying breath shall you understand, your life amounted to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean!
Yet what is any ocean but a multitude of drops?
Power, time, gravity, love. The forces that really kick ass are all invisible.
Why fight the 'natural' (oh, weaselly word!) order of things? Why? Because of this - one fine day, a purely predatory world shall consume itself. In an individual, selfishness uglifies the soul; for the human species, selfishness is extinction.
All revolutions are, until they happen, then they are historical inevitabilities.
If we believe that humanity may transcend tooth and claw, if we believe diverse races and creeds can share this world as peaceably as the orphans share their candle-nut tree, if we believe leaders must be just, violence muzzled, power accountable and the riches of the earth and its oceans shared equitably, such a world will come to pass.
I believe there is another world waiting for us. A better world. And I'll be waiting for you there.