|Ellie||# Posted on October 17, 2013 at 4:21 pm|
@ijesuschrist, I think he knows I am. The first time he mentioned it to me I expressed extreme disapproval, any time it indirectly came up after that I just kept silent. My logic has been that if I were to openly disapprove, he wouldn’t stop, he’d just continue and start being less honest with me. That’s what I did when people disapproved of my oxy snorting.
Well it was awesome obviously. I’d say it’s comparable to mdma in a way, but more clear headed. You feel extremely CLEAR(best word to describe it), all your senses are heightened, super euphoric, I remember this feeling in my chest/heart area that just felt like joy bubbling over. You wanna dance and sing and talk for hours. Your body and head tingle in a very pleasurable way… and you always want more. Instantly addictive. I smoked it which makes it even more addictive. My ex and I used it to drive from California to Nebraska and it made the 30 hour drive seem like 2 hours.
Honestly I never developed an issue with it because I can’t handle the come down. Yeah you stay high for like 8 hours… but you pay for it for days afterward. You’re simply incapacitated, your body aches(especially my back), my mouth got these uncomfortable sores in it when I tried to eat, you just feel cracked the fuck out and I’ve always hated that feeling. For that reason, I’ve always been more susceptible to abusing downers.