|Heed them, HEthen||# Posted on March 28, 2013 at 4:29 pm|
@wetlemon, So you’re telling me you don’t like *anything*? There must be something that sounds good to you. When you think of “achievements”, what are the first things you think of? Are you actually wanting THOSE achievements, or are you sure you’re not just wanting the PRAISE?
The problem with what I read from what you’re saying, is that it appears that you’re looking to fulfill yourself from external sources. Well, I have to say that that is impossible. I’m sorry, dear, that’s not what you want to hear. But the reason you don’t have “ambitions” is because you don’t know WHAT you want. You only want the end result, but the end result is only 10%, and the journey will be 90% of your time. You’re going to have to do this thing that is meaningless besides the “great” feeling you’ll get afterwards, and it will be something that you have to endure.
You are looking too long term and cutting short your mid- and short-term goals. That’s the problem. You’re hazy and not allowing yourself to form even a label on something you like cause you’re making the word “like” mean “passionate and life-absorbing in a way that lets me escape my pain” or you’re hoping to escape your pain through outward praise of doing something noteworthy. That’s not going to help you. You’ll still feel empty when you get praised for something you did – the only real reward you get for yourself is self-satisfaction. And you won’t get self-satisfaction from something that isn’t meaningful to you.
There is nothing you even like the idea of being good at? There’s nothing you even vaguely like the idea of enjoying?
Like I love the idea of being good at playing an instrument, but it’s so much concentration on something I’m not good at at all and don’t feel like pursuing, so I know I will never bother. Or no time soon. Anything like that?