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hello # Posted on October 27, 2013 at 2:47 pm

@helenz, I think I went through this exact thing, didn’t know it had a name though lol. I was going to college in Boston to get my doctorate degree in pharmacy which is a six year program, and after a year and a half, I figured out I didn’t want to do it at all. I dropped out of school and didn’t tell my parents until I had pretty much guaranteed I was going to drop out (didn’t do shit the last month of school). The next four or five months were probably the roughest of my life, I had hit rock bottom. I was feeling really shitty about pretty much everything in general, just going through the motions, acting like I thought I should be acting, but the biggest thing was I just didn’t feel anything, it was like I was just an empty vessel going through life but not living. The worst was a month span where I was contemplating taking my own life, and there was one day where I came close to doing it. But at that moment I thought, why am I doing this? Why would I want to stop this? After this, I started my road to recovery. It started off slowly at first, more just not feeling so blah some days more than others. I think what helped me the most was just taking an active role in my life, and figuring out what I wanted and to just get going on it. Now, a year later, I can say I am truly happy with who what and where I am, and it feels great :)