|Nate||# Posted on October 29, 2013 at 2:04 pm|
I think sometimes the only way to become the monk is to first be the rockstar.
If we DENY these “passions,” we’re not fully living. If we feel through them however, i.e., use sex, alcohol as spiritual catalysts, then we can eventually break out of the patterns of addiction and release. (I don’t mean addiction in the brutal sense; we’re all addicted to things [like orgasms], in one way or another).
The difference would be if you’re partaking in these rockstar passions like a gluttonous pig, binging for pleasure. Otherwise, keep doing what feels RIGHT. As your body and brain develop, you’ll find your balance. Who knows, maybe someday you will reach full-time monkhood.
One thing is for certain though: do NOT feel guilty about pursuing your passions in the interim. It would be foolish to deny yourself what you’re biologically programmed to enjoy. I think the “cursed (French) poet” Arthur Rimbaud said it best:
“A Poet makes himself a visionary through a long, boundless, and systematized disorganization of all the senses. All forms of love, of suffering, of madness; he searches himself, he exhausts within himself all poisons and preserves their quintessence’s. Unspeakable torment, where he will need the greatest faith, a superhuman strength, where he becomes among all men the great invalid, the great criminal, the great accursed–and the Supreme Scientist!”
Lastly, I suggest you read Siddhartha if you haven’t already; a very similar concept.