|Mike Wuest||# Posted on June 3, 2012 at 12:11 pm|
@daveb, I appreciate that. What you explained is kind of where I’m heading it seems like. And I agree it is self-absorbed, but honestly how could we know any differently? And when I see ‘we’, I think you can guess at who I’m talking about. Most of the people around me aren’t even at the point where they realize they are self-absorbed. It’s kind of sickening sometimes, and I don’t mean that judgmentally. It is what it is.. just plain sickening. I mean don’t get me wrong, I think there are people who are not self-absorbed at all that I interact with pretty often, but for the most part this is not the case. But the problem for me is that I kind of feel stuck because I can’t be motivated to do things out of desire to attain things, or at least not even 1/5 as well as I used to. And I don’t mean this in Buddhist philosophy way where it’s just a belief I have about it. But then what is there to motivate me if chasing things doesn’t? That’s what I’m finding out right now. This is affecting my whole life.. from how I perceive women, to what I think is important and all my values. I admit I should not complain that I have the luxury to have these problems though, but it’s where I’m at so why deny it.