First of all I will excuse my lack of english since I`m Norwegian and live in Norway.
I have been on a spiritual journey since the BOOM festival 2012 but done heaps of psychedelics before that. The thing is I started skydiving when I was 20 and lived a “normal” life until that became boring and started basejumping 5 years ago (I am 31 now). And since then I`ve literally been living on the edge of everything. I have a double life as I work as an engineer and in the weekends and holidays I travel, jump, climb mountain, live outdoors, drive racingbikes, festivals (like burning man, BOOM, Ozora, freaks of nature) and do psychedelics with my crazy friends (exept of last weekend I had a spiritual trip on 5 g with shrooms +DMT). The thing is…. In my normal life with my normal friends and associates, I cant find anything interesting to talk about since I cant say what I`m doing or what I have been experienced. I find it really hard to communicate with the people thats not my “crazy” basejumping friends which I only see on holidays and maybe in the weekends. Feels like I`ve been pushed more and more away from the “normal” life since I started beeing spiritual and started jumping and “normal” people just look wierd at me if I even mention meditating and think I have a death wish, when I just enjoying it. I LOVE my life and its awesome, just find it very flat and fake when I need to wear my everyday mask. Any suggestions? Peace&Love
@flyingshroom, That’s real cool! I’ve wanted to try basejumping or skydiving but I’m too much of a puss…. I do extreme sports too though, speedball(paintball) and skateboard. Your making money man, don’t take things too fast, you seem to have a very well-balanced lifestyle, joy and responsibility. I don’t know what you’re not being fulfilled by but maybe a girl? I know what you mean about being able to talk to people on the level we talk on these forums since my girlfriend questions why I meditate, though she prays more than I do, and I consider that meditation, since I say my prayers when I do meditate… You will find people like you everywhere, just don’t look, they find you.
@flyingshroom, Awesome! Sounds like you’re having fun and living life :-)
I know what you mean about interacting with “normal” people. I used to feel like I could only relate to people who were into the same weird stuff that I was. As for everyone else (the “normal” people)… I learned at an early age to just let go, and let people see me however they see me.
Hiding behind a facade is uncomfortable!!! It makes it hard to be fully PRESENT. I’d rather just stand up, stretch out, and walk happily in the light of day. What people think about me is their own business, not mine.
If you just let go of the desire to have people see you in a certain way… and let see you however they want… then you are free of this “problem” that you have.
Let your mouth be an outlet for your thoughts. If you’re standing with a co-worker, looking up at a tall building, and you’re thinking “Damn, I wanna jump off of that,” then say so! Why keep it all stuffed up in your head? Let it out into the open air. If you’re sitting at lunch and talking about what you did over the weekend, don’t hold back your stories just because you’re afraid of what people will think of you! I guarantee your stories will be more interesting than anybody elses’ at the table.
That doesn’t mean you need to talk about this stuff all the time. Just let it flow naturally. When your mind is still and quiet, your mouth naturally remains silent. When your mind is focused on engineering work, your mouth naturally talks about engineering stuff. When your mind is thinking about basejumping and/or psychedelics, your mouth naturally talks about basejumping and/or psychedelics. Let your mouth do what it does naturally, don’t try to control it, don’t hold it back.
Obviously, there are times when talking is inappropriate, like when people are trying to focus on work, or at a funeral, or when your words could be genuinely hurtful to somebody… use your compassion and common sense. The point is that you don’t need to hold anything back just because you’re afraid of what people will think of you.
JUST BE YOURSELF! When you allow your (admittedly unconventional) personality to shine through and wear your heart on your sleeve, some people will see you as “weird” or “crazy,” while others will see you as awesomely unusual, attractively different, or strangely charismatic. You’ll find friends and lovers in people you never would have expected.
Of course, you could just shut your mouth and keep your “crazy life” and “normal life” completely separate. That’s totally fine too and some people might enjoy that. Personally, I prefer to live an integrated life, where I can just “be myself” in every situation. It’s easier for me and requires less effort, and as a bonus, I meet so many quietly like-minded people in places I would never have expected.
Enjoy! Good luck to you.
@kevinellerton, Thanks for an awesome reply mate :)
I totally agree that I should be myself, but it`s not that easy to talk about my partyes jumping and dancing naked around a bon fire on psychedelics at the lunsh table when people are sitting in a dress and tie. When it comes to my normal friends I am more or less myself but even then I tryed to say something like: “I ate and smoked my dead friend” last weekend” to try to get their attention while wathcing baywatch. When only one of them stopped chewing popcorn for a second and continued watching tellie. I think its too mutch for their brain to absorbe. In the sport of base jumping there are allot of mates going in while living the dream as it is a dangerous sport. As a ritual we take their ashes and spread it all over the big moutains while jumping and usually eat a bit and then smoke some in a joint to let them be within us. I know it sounds bizarre but its normal for me. You might understand now why I`m getting pushed futher away from the “normal” life and stop talking about what I`m doing.
But anyways: I will try to open up a bit more from now, just using a good filter :-)
Namaste earthlings <3
dude what ever snide or uncanny look a person may give you for being who you are they are not the ones who matter for what you find beautiful or thrilling in life. people who judge others for being crazy are too mundane to express themselves in anyway similar. That is what makes you unique. Man from reading your summary of your life your life fucking super man to me living a double life. just take it as that. your the average joe at work and then bam! your eating mushrooms jumping out of an airplane. if “normal” people cant fathom the things you do try sitting next to me i would listen to every story you have to tell! there will always be a divide between “crazy” and “normal” which is what makes the whole thing beautiful!