Several months ago I had my second psychedelic experience with a chemical known as 25i, very similar to LSD, but a bit more intense per dose.
I was on a beach with several friends in a fairly isolated area surrounded on one side by thick brush and plant-life and on the other by the still ocean and the Miami skyline. We had just smoked a joint and, with this particular chemical, THC interacts and magnifies it in the most dissociative ways I’ve ever experienced. As this began to happen, I was seeing myself through the eyes of my friends in vivid detail. I described to them an entertainment device I wished to construct that would allow the user to experience the five sense of another person.
That’s when I saw it.
This lonely rock perched on top of this downed tree. How sublime, how did it get there, did someone put it there? Why? I started on this thought until arrived at what I assumed what the meaning of life.
It had taken natural forces millions of years for this rock to end up on this tree. If humanity geared towards making this happen we could do it in minutes, we would just bash some rocks, take a piece and put it on the log, fairly simple.
But what power!
Life is just particles reorganized in the most advanced and complex system of organization ever known, self-aware, self-correcting, the universe has designed its own system of checks and balances. I realized then that my whole existence is to be self-aware, so that I might make the universe, if not better, more efficient, more stream-lined, to reduce the lag between action and consequence, to increase complexity while at the same time reducing the effort.
My eyes then turned to the skyline and the towering buildings, I was filled with sadness. How could we have destroyed the magnificent complexity of nature in order to build these simple brutish blocks? Why is it that when we look at a forest we do not see a finely tuned machine, akin to a muscle car or a microchip, but instead we only see living space to be torn down.
I stood on the beach, my feet in the sand, the waves look like sound waves breaking on my toes, like the actual sound waves they produce breaking into my ear drums, and the light waved bouncing off their surface and breaking on my cheek. everything is a layer, a unity of systems, we are a part of space-time’s OS, but what do we do?
Life is nature’s most ambitious project, but what is humanity? Are we the upgrade or the glitch? Are we to enhance the universe and use our complexity to better everything around us? Or are we to break the machine, to destroy it and send it back to the planning stages of molten earth.
The fractals are amazing.
These are some amazing concepts, which are really true! I like to believe that we are here for a much greater cause than just drive our cars to work and get paid at the end of the week, but society has been molded like this and we need to take a step towards healing this world and making the universe a more complex and efficient piece of machinery.
I to tried to document my experiences similar to yours. But everything came out as layers, wave, levels, observations, feelings, etc. I felt they didn’t adequately describe what I was experiencing. What I realize now is that only when you have experience it for yourself that you will completely understand it. Just like explaining color to a blind person. You can try but they will never create that color in their mind. It expands your mind!
@doblearcoiris, I too have experience the 25i, and needless to say it fucked me up. I did it with my friends in a nature setting, and they kept writing the weirdest shit and different questions and phrases. Yet, all I could put down on paper was the infinty symbol. It sounds cheesy, but when you think about it, it makes sense.
Nature is my religion, nature is the way to enlightenment and it is a shame to see a beautiful piece of land demolished for a shopping mall.
And as far as humanity goes, I like to believe we are a beautiful accident. A glitch as you would say.
I did I pretty high dose of 25i once, and I had no visuals or cool thoughts, but somehow I was heavily altered in some way. Sort of like a profound sense of mental discomfort for 8 hours. I sat atop a ladder in my bro’s garage, half-naked, chain-smoking cigarettes, until the effects subsided. Of the dozens of psychedelics I’ve tried, 25i is the second to last on my list rating the usefulness of these substances. Last is 25c, which scarred me in ways I can never express–it is terrible, don’t do it. However, I guess everyone is different, so I’m glad that someone at least enjoyed the stuff…
You definitely have to experience it to even come close to understanding it. I often find that discussions about psychedelics with those who have never experienced it is much like it would be explaining aluminum foil to a medieval peasant.
The 25i is very intense, I experienced, I wouldn’t say ego-death, but ego confusion as I began to see myself through other peoples eyes and thinking they could see through my eyes as well. It was as if we discovered the AV cables of consciousness and were swapping them around. The infinity symbol makes sense, I think of reality as the resonance of infinity, think of infinity as the rock falling into the lake and what we experience as reality to be the ripples.
The reason we even have 7 billion people is because we lost touch with a sustainable lifestyle. We either keep expanding and dig ourselves deeper into the hole until our whole population collapses or we scale back and live in a more rational way.
Now that I think of it, I might have actually dosed on 25c, did you experience any superimposition of mental images over actual images? When I was tripping I kept seeing things in my mind’s eye that appeared to be layered over things my actual eye saw.
@doblearcoiris, ” realized then that my whole existence is to be self-aware, so that I might make the universe, if not better, more efficient, more stream-lined, to reduce the lag between action and consequence, to increase complexity while at the same time reducing the effort.”
I love that line.