Alone in Awareness
“Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.”
– Carl Jung
Most of the time I’m able to smile and pretend to be engaged in piontless conversations with people I could care less about. However, lately that hasn’t been the case.
I’ve been going through a severe existential crisis to the point where I’m hardly able to function. Sometimes I wonder, am I the only one alone in awareness? Obviously I know thats not so but it feels so isolating to care about things that most of society finds meaningless.This is not to say that I believe most people are ignorant but I can’t understand how the absurdity of reality escapes most people today. In many ways I envy most peoples oblivion to the existential questions that dictate my life.
Basically my question for you all is; in todays society what does one do with ones Awareness?
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It’s hard my friend. You’re not the only one. There are very few of us out there. I’ve had the problem of where I try to open up and talk about what I have experienced and most people (the average person) will act as if I’m the one who is asleep as if this reality is normal. It is hard to keep it all in and not let the world see the person you are but the ones that are supposed to be in your life will come at the right times. Hope you are well. I send love and peace your way.
I don’t know. It drives me crazy sometimes. I want to play, I don’t take any opinion serious,especially my own. I am not my opinion. I want to look in eyes , there it happens. I don’t want attraction all the time, drinking beers, talking shit. I want a girlfriend who doesn’t mind to be silent for 5 days just as experiment. But people don’t seems to want to experiment. O yes they go to expensive trainings and meditations, and then continue. Yesterday night I was standing nude outside, not for exposing myself, I don’t like that. Just to feel and breath
Find the others…when I had my earth shattering mushroom trip a few years ago my whole universe was turned upside down. It’s a lonely feeling when you feel like secrets of the universe have been revealed to you yet it’s impossible to explain to anyone else. You’re not the only one going through this crisis. Finding others with similar experiences is helpful. This could also be your shadow side that needs to be integrated into your life. Figuring out how to do that can be tricky. Best of luck! Hang in there!
I hear you. I feel the same a lot of time, to the point where I’ve withdrawn quite a bit from the normal banter at work due to its absurdity. I just come in and get my work done and try to be positive and compassionate with others. It is really lonely at times, but I take refuge in my inner consciousness and the community of seekers, though at times my only contact is thru the internet or books. I do have a few friends that are somewhat conscious or that I can at least talk to without feeling like they are dismissing me as a new-age hippie or something. Seek other seekers. Remember, seek and ye shall find.
Get out and cut the grass, work in the garden all day. Such apparently simple tasks, reconnect you the simplicity of beingness and the sheer joy of being together with the earth. Its highly spiritual to be a “farmer”. Since most of us we have lost touch with the earth in modern society, we are in a confused stage of human history, but the answer is right before us. Going back to a simple way of living will be the way. We have a strong bond to the spirit of the earth, when it is distrubed, both of us suffer, the earth and us.
It is a trick of the ego that makes you melancholic (am I the only one?) I had that too. go out and find the answer. There have been and there are many people who know the truth. And thats about it. There is no difference between knowing and not knowing, we all live in truth. Whether you are waking up or still asleep. Dont try to get in and make a distinction. Dont make a division where there should be oneness. This is the hardest thing – to give up making a distinction between yourself (the spiritual seeker) and others (the blind masses or whatevery you want to call them). We are all living spirits. Seekers or not. we are. Peace.
I understand you and I don’t agree in your solution. Not that I say your answer is wrong. Nor do I want to say I am others as others. I am old and experienced enough to say. Most people are afraid of real spontaneous actions. I could give you dozens of examples. Fuck the earth, I am not a Indian anymore, been there, done that. For me it’s about interactions and atmosphere. And I am not saying your wrong :-) Greetings
Fuck the earth? Most spiritual traditional communities if not all (not only indians) around the world, know the great spirit of the earth and pray to it in thankfulness and gratitiude and serve it. I didnt understand your point about interaction and atmosphere, can you explain? cheers! :)
Here’s what you do: make jokes. Be fun. Make people laugh. Not everyone is going to be capable of having a serious conversation with you, but even the dullest of people enjoy being around someone who can make a game of the daily grind. That’s probably easier said than done. I’m not one of those people but all my favorite friends are.
Focus on integrating the frequencies emanating from Acylone. Use it to rise your vibration to that of a quartz crystal and ascend out of the limitations of the 3rd dimension. A person with Awareness has no other priority. By accomplishing this you assist all.
Until that time, do you best to selfless and assist others, be an example.