Sometimes the thought of how much a bitch I am crosses my mind but I do not think a lot about it, I just let it pass. What I mean by being a bitch is being a bad person, behaving in ways you wouldn’t be proud of, but most importantly taking life for granted and not doing the right thing just because, well it wouldn’t matter, even though you know that it does matter deep down inside but you just do not do it.
How many of you think they have been a bitch? how many of you have taken things for granted?
I think part of it is due to the fact that this life doesn’t seem real to me… I somehow get the impression that it’s just a cycle of repetitive events. death seems to make everything unreal to me. A wedding, a birthday, a love story, they all seem to be meaningless for that matter.
I have lost a lot because of this attitude. If anyone here understands me and can help me that would save me from losing more wonderful things in my life.
@kidvisions, what troubles me is that I am perfectly acceptable to myself but others seem to to see it quite differently. As if I am supposed to fit in to their predictable box of how a human being should be.
You ought to examine where you got your ideas of right behavior and attitude
Even with the added definition I am having trouble associating that definition with that word.
I understand what you mean by your definition but I wouldn’t quite phrase it that way.
For me, sometimes I just cannot submerge myself deep enough into relativity. I end up thinking about the big picture and it tends to make people feel small. That said, I do try to and have improved on dismissing this mindset because, honestly, we were made relative…we exist as relative, we aren’t going to change from that outside of massive evolution, so why fight it?
@kidvisions, I don’t see how anyone but yourself could help in this kind of situation. Change your point of view and you’ll realize there is not only one truth. You may be a bitch but you’re much more. What or better: who you are is defined by what you THINK you put to life with your presence among others (including yourself).
@manimal, you are not alone man. Bitchy habits I have rid myself of: being angry at people who only want to help me, getting frustrated with trivialities, having pity parties with myself
Bitchy habits I have mostly rid myself of: Negative thought habits including superiority, jealousy, and pettiness.
Bitchy habits I have yet to get rid of in any real way: inferiority complex (more psychological than an emotional pity party), stress-caused immediate gratification, self-consciousness.
I can’t help you with the bitchy part, ya gotta help yourself on that one. It gets alot easier once you realize how much better being a good person feels.
As far as death making you feel that way, watch this:
In a way, the fact that you’re going to die can be liberating. So enjoy yourself, live how you want and live well.
No, I’m a princess!
I am sure this is going to be helpful to some people. http://www.heartlessbitches.com/heartless/collected_quotes.shtml
@kidvisions, If death makes everything seem unreal to you, then why not think about life, instead of death and about the people you love? You will remember people after they die and people will remember you after you die. Since no one is talking about death here, because everyone seems to emphasize on being a bitch, it seems like being a bitch is worse than being dead.
Death really makes everything go away, but that doesn’t mean that love or the good and wonderful things aren’t real while you are alive and grateful for them. And I’m sure you wouldn’t want to be remembered as a person that gave no meaning to life, because you thought it was unreal.
Acting bitchy is not a title and no one can fucking get rid of the habits of complaining about the little things that are annoying while they’re still living in a world with other people. I’d rather talk with people that know what the fuck they want from life and get angry at trivialities, thanks. :)
@rickvonstar, I know that what I do is not right, when it hurts people, or results in hurting me. @lytning91, Part of what I was talking about is like you said here : “I end up thinking about the big picture and it tends to make people feel small” but another part, is about really being BAD when you could have been good, or rather being “selfish” I guess.. For example if a little kids asks you to play with them, you would tell them you can’t because you are busy when you are not, and you just don’t want to play with them because you feel that it wouldn’t matter…@justgoing, I understand that out thoughts basically control a big part of our life, but it’s a long and difficult process to change them, and I think there should be methods to do that, about which I am not yet aware.
@benjamin, @beyond, Thank you for the links! I am exploring them and will let you know my thoughts.
@beyond, Well, I agree with you. I also think that I tend to forget how being alive is a blessing… Its scary somehow, being alive and knowing that you will die is really scary and that’s probably why it’s easier to dwell on the fact that it just doesn’t matter…
It’s really confusing… This gives me an idea to start another post :p
@benjamin, I have been listening to your link over and over again. It says it all, thank you! I like how it ends with something that sounds like this : ” The secret always is in the place we never think of looking for it ” This, I think is our curse, we seem so blind to see what really matters , especially when we have it before our eyes, we tend to take things for granted, and not be grateful for them.
@beyond, I’ve been taking a look at the website and I have to say that I don’t get it…
Well, with alot of what Manimal said, we all are bitches. When we decide that we’ve had enough of being the little bitch and are tired in drowning of the systematic life style we’ve become aware of, we can grow into the big bitch.
And by big bitch, I don’t mean a super cunt (hahaha). I’m referred to as a “big bitch” because I don’t take the routine of life for shit, I stand for what I believe in critically while keeping an open mind. I run my business like a hardened veteran, but with a determination that many would classify as “bitch behavior” because I’m not going to allow routine to restrict MY life. When you find something in life you love, you are determined to do, you start to change your attitude. You can be the happiest mother fucker, but being a bitch is something we’re all capable of. Try like hell to avoid it? Why are you trying when you CAN change it, why not wake up and realize that this life is YOURS. It doesn’t matter whatever the fuck anyone else is doing, don’t focus on the patterns of what EVERYONE has chosen to do, make your own fucking pattern. Make your own life. Break free of what is making you a bitch.
Take that jump to change, take the leap for whatever it is you are looking for in life. Stop shying away from what you want to do, what you want to learn, because you’re too distracted by the “bad” things in life that you feel are repetitive. Be the big bitch and change it. Get after what you want, go fucking get it. You don’t need to be haunted by some title you gave yourself, you don’t even need a title. But if you want to restrict yourself to the bitch title, morph into the big bitch that’s ready to go on an adventure in life to live, to be free, to find what it is you want. And to make a positive change for yourself that YOU are satisfied with.