Bad Soul

This is more of an realization. I have in my past always wondered what I have done wrong in my past existence. I always believed that I was a bad soul, who did bad things in a past existence to be given my current life. I thought that this flawed life was punishment for corrupted history of lives. Then something changed. I don’t know when, or why, but my point of view on my life has drastically changed. At some point, I’m not even sure when, but slowly, as I grew older in my current life, I started to think of past events, thoughts, and knowledge. Then a single thought started to bloom. Perhaps, my past lives, my spirit, my soul was never the problem. Maybe my current thought process was the issue. I then started to understand that blaming my life, and my actions on something that was so far beyond my control was so much easier than grabbing and holding onto what I could control, which is my current life. As I started to accept and hold myself responsible for my actions, and my thoughts and stopped blaming them on other outside forces, I started to gain that control that I had refused for so long. Then, something magical happen. I realized, my life is the only thing I can really one hundred percent control. And suddenly my life didn’t seem like a punishment anymore. And I started to enjoy my life. Rather than blaming all my problems on arbitrary past, I can control my future.