Because I can't sleep.

 Kello (@Kello)6 years, 2 months ago

I am not drunk nor high, or at least in no state that originated from unnatural causes, everything that I’m writing and have ever written is a mere product of my mind, acting the way it so likes to do, when it does.

There’s no reason for opening this thread that the title doesn’t already say, insomnia is indeed the main cause for it. I’ve feel like on those nights when it seems that my brain doesn’t want to turn off, but rather keeps generating thoughts, sentences and all kinds of hints of ideas, the best way to get some sleep is to actually use my mental organ intentionally, get it tired so that eventually it is willing to get some rest.

Why did I felt the need to share the content of my mind here ? I don’t know. My mind’s pride surely, because oh the waste it would’ve been if I decided to just let this precious work of art that are my thoughts unshared, unseen by the rest of the world. Also I think I might like this forum, or at least what I once perceived it to be when I first discovered it, and maybe a part of me, the kind, intuitive one who doesn’t feel the need to talk so much, felt that some of what I’d say might actually help someone out there, some other mind in understanding itself a bit more, maybe.

I don’t actually planned talking about anything in particular when I decided to start writing this but now that I feel as if I might’ve actually caught someone’s attention, I guess I should say something valuable.

You are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are definitely not what you think you are.

I have absolutely no idea what you might be, what even I might be, and it’s just fine that way.

Stop thinking you have to be someone, for your own sake, try to shut your mind off more often.

Do not think. Just do what you do, and think about the best way to do it, but do not think.

And lastly I shall repeat myself, everything I formulate, may it be in spoken sound, written words or mental thoughts, is not myself, surely I am better than that, although there’s no way I can tell for sure.

Everything I do is merely a hint of who I am. What applies to me probably applies to you in some way.

Okay I’m done, hopefully I’ll manage to fall asleep now. Again, don’t take yourself so seriously, and don’t take myself so seriously neither, just take things as they are, knowing that you don’t know what they are.

July 22, 2015 at 12:42 pm
Nortaute Grintalis (0) (@faust-s.godot) 6 years, 1 month ago ago

But the real question is… Did you fall asleep?

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