Being alone

 Jonathan (@yonatron829)8 years, 2 months ago

I just feel so alone, and ignored. I’m a shadow to everyone. I look at all these popular kids who do nothing to get the most attention and it just kills me. why the hell do they deserve it? I just want people to acknowledge me and give me the time of day.
It’s beginning to turn very sour. I dont know why I’m writing this, but just the mad tapping of the keyboard helps.

July 21, 2013 at 3:27 pm
Shady Giorgio (30) (@giorgioknolege) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@yonatron829, haha i posted something similar to this once, in case you want to read some of the responses https://www.highexistence.com/topic/no-one-wants-to-hangout-with-me-why/ .

Listen to me! those kids who are popular now or going to be alone 98% of the times after you finish school, but if you are talking about celebrities, well we live in a stupid world taht why they have so much attention. You can use this alone time to find your passion and work on it a bit, but if you a craving some socializing with people you like and they like you then volunteer in festivals and cool eventsand talk to people introduce yourself , i made friends with 2 girls just by starting to talk with them for no reason while volunteering at a film festival , they ended up having their own issues and we bonded and when they come back from london we will hang out. You need to look for people outside your box or safe zone, people who are looking for people like you and want to spend time with you or out there, brother You might die tomorrow or later today Higher existence forbid, those people who don’t give you any attention are just too in their dream world and don’t appreciate people like you, because they are crazy haha and not REAL FRIENDS.

Tho i warn you take steps slowly not fast, i know how hard is change!.
OH and Please exercise, makes you see stuff din other ways(better).

And DON”T GIVE A FLYING FUCK MAN ITS YOUR LIFE DON”T WASTE IT ON STUPID PEOPLE!

Have a great one man, and remember you are not alone in this, we are many!
Take care.

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James (16) (@jameswzup) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@yonatron829, who said they deserve it? Also, isn’t wrong to desire acceptance, however it won’t do you much good.

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

It’s amazing how things can change when we learn to give our ego a rest and serve the higher self a little bit. All truth seekers live a lonely life in one way or another. We are not here to find acceptence from others like we love to tell ourselves, but the feelings you have are given to you from the innerself in order to guide and teach you as to why you are really here. And as Shady said…exercise, it does wonders in itself : )

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@jameswzup, Also listen to… @giorgioknolege, anyone who picks up babes 2 at a time just can’t be wrong lol!! : )

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Shady Giorgio (30) (@giorgioknolege) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@vovinawol, What can i say Cthulhu must love me man! Nothing less haha

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@giorgioknolege, LOL! The Vovin envies you : )
Also, @yonatron829, remember when I tell you this…that many people who feel like an outcast or similar, end up being some of the greatest souls on the planet. The reasons for that are just too many to list here, but believe you me when I tell you that.

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Stacy Retro Hippy Love (6) (@RetroHippyLove) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

Hey, I just joined this site yesterday while looking for things on the internet about white girls getting and maintaining dreadlocks naturally. So I joined it and found myself finding all these great inspirational quality posts about everything!! I feel great about joining this topic because I don’t have many friends in life and this is a great way to express myself and realize that there are others who feel the same way. I don’t have any advise on the topic, just maybe lose yourself in music. That’s what I’ve done lots over these last 2 years..

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bmarie (25) (@bmarie) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@yonatron829, I have been in that same situation for about four years now. I’ve never really been one to have a lot of friends because I was always really shy and self-conscious, but even now that I’m not nearly as shy and I really don’t care so much what people think of me, I still don’t have many friends. I’ve been out of school for a year now and I have only hung out with one friend, twice, and she really is just kind of fake and I don’t want to even talk to her anymore. I always get random bouts of loneliness and sadness because I don’t have any friends and I wonder what is wrong with me, but over the past year I have kind of realized it isn’t me that has a problem but all of the people around me. I have always known that there are very few people I connect with and can be really good friends with, especially since I am trying to become more self aware. I have known for a while that I’m not much “fun” to be around because I don’t party or gossip or do anything that is considered fun to a lot of the people around here. I also realized a lot of the problem has been my own fault because I’ve always been quick to judge other people or I expect people to just come flocking to me. Basically what I’m saying is you need to figure out who you are and probably spend the time alone not dwelling on the sadness and loneliness you feel but focus the attention on becoming you and learning what you like. If you spend your time doing things you enjoy, you’re bound to find someone to connect with. Like a lot of people here have said, volunteer at cool events and do some fun things. Don’t expect to make a lot of people with the school crowd. Try different things and get a better variation. I’m content being alone now because I’ve grown to like myself as a person and I know how to entertain myself, but I’m still really looking forward to going away to college next month because it’s a new opportunity to meet completely different people, hopefully more people that are similar to me. I look for a deeper connection when I make friends. So don’t try to just find someone to hang out with to take up your time. Find someone who you have a real connection with. Sorry for writing such a long response d:

Edit: And by the way, most popular people (severe generalization) are pretty superficial and are popular because they attract other superficial people, which is a large portion of the population. Just learn to be content being alone, that’s really the best advice I have! Don’t let your lack of friends or whatever make you upset. Especially if you’re in high school, you will most likely never talk to those people again when you graduate.

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@retrohippylove, WELCOME to the anti-matrix of HE lol!

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Stacy Retro Hippy Love (6) (@RetroHippyLove) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@vovinawol, Yay! it seems pretty great so far! I’ve never been on anything like it before and it goes along well with the mindset I have lately. I’m always trying to look for a deeper meaning in everything!

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@retrohippylove, Yea, I found this site by shear accident and coincidence! OR WAS IT? LOL

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Stacy Retro Hippy Love (6) (@RetroHippyLove) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

LOL its interesting, I like it!

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Katie Z (2) (@ktzimm) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

To me, what you really need isn’t popularity or an influx of friends but some time alone to cultivate yourself and a friendship with you. Remember, popularity is for the mediocre, and you my friend, are not. I spent all of my high school years wondering what was so special about the popular jerks, until I realized: nothing. There is literally nothing that stood out or unique about them in the scheme of things, and THAT is exactly why they are popular and have tons of friends, because they constantly look to others for approval. They live for acceptance and conformity, even if it means losing the essence of who they are a little bit. And the good thing about that for you? That means you ARE different. And that’s great, it really is. Maybe you don’t have as many or any friends in comparison to them, and that was my case as well, until one day years later my Dad told me to stop comparing my social experience to those of others. Because they’re not the same, at all. And yours aren’t the same. And that’s a gift, it really truly is. Because you WILL find people in your life who are similar and have similar interests to you. And they will become your friends. And you’ll appreciate them all the more because you realize how rare it is to find great people like that. And you’re one of them. My best advice? 1) Stop comparing your social experiences to everyone elses. You don’t have to have the same ones as them. 2) Start appreciating yourself for who you really are. Don’t try and change you, embrace you for everything that you are. Others WILL catch on and take notice, and in a way, it indirectly allows them to be themselves too. 3) Take some time to work on you. Do things that you enjoy just for the hell of it. Start finding things that you like and can do alone and do them -video games, read books, surf the web, go see a movie, go for a hike, smoke some weed (if that’s your kinda thing) and think about your existence, meditate, exercise, the list goes on. Once you realize that are capable of truly being on your own and independent, it will make the alone times feel much less alone, and you’ll realize you don’t need anyone else’s approval but your own. For me, I eventually discovered that once people started coming around and I had a lot of friends, I actually wanted to be alone. And it’s a beautiful thing, really, to love yourself. Because the best and most significant relationship you will ever have is with YOU.

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Rhett Cuthbert (20) (@rhettcuthbert3) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

Do not sit in alon ness….unless you are meditating…..or, meditate on your alone ness…..read articles on the internet, occupy your space

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

Well, I have lived alone for around 13 years now, and I kinda like it. I normally feel alone more when I’m around people at work than I do at home for some reason. Not that it matters much since we are never truly alone no matter where we are.
For me it may be the fact that I spent about 10 years reading, and I normally read my books in private so I could concentrate more. The Kabalah was no easy subject to study as well as all the other systems of thought. Since the seeds were planted back then, I barely read all those deep books anymore for some reason. I suppose I am at the watering the plants stage now.

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

I can honestly say that now I’m mostly done with the reading and grinding my mind stage, I can now find more time to laugh and smile, if that makes any sense? : )

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Stacy Retro Hippy Love (6) (@RetroHippyLove) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@vovinawol, what is the “Kabalah” ?! I’ve never heard of it.

My experience with the shift that has been happening is I’ll try to explain it as shortly as possible…
11 years ago I had a Near Death Experience and after it I was sort of screwed up and focused on my physical recovery. I had extensive injuries which included severe head trauma, (frontal lobe damage and a bleed in another part, my whole brain was swollen, and I was in a coma for 3 months) my right leg was broken in 2 places, my jaw was shattered, I broke 2 ribs which punctured a lung. I was only 17 at the time.
When I woke up from the coma I had no memory of anything that happened 5 months prior to the car accident. I honestly didn’t know why I was there and what happened. I put it together over the next few months, keep in mind I couldn’t walk or talk because of the head trauma. I was a popular “cool kid” before the accident as well and while I was in the local hospital that was extremely accessible to all of my so called “friends” only about 10 of them ever came to see me once. My “best friend” at the time came and seen me three times but never again.
After I went to the long term recovery hospital to relearn how to walk, talk, read and eat over again I immersed myself in recovery classes and all I wanted was to be normal again.

about a year later I signed myself out of the hospital and went home to continue my recovery. I was still talking extremely slow and walking with a cane (had no balance)
About 5 years into my recovery I started reading a ton of books on Near death experiences, shamans and being authentic with your word and happened to meet a lady who also had a NDE and she sort of took me under her wing and taught me how to meditate. I had been doing it for about two months three times a day when I started feeling tingling sensations on the top of my head and a swirly tornado of cool air on my right hand’ palm. I was shocked and excited the first time I felt it! Things would start happening to me where I would start getting a gut feeling about somethings, or my hand would start tingling before something good was going to happen to me. Then I met a guy and it was great for awhile, then these things like meditation, reiki and reading and bettering myself weren’t important to me anymore. So I quit it all and focused on that one relationship for about 3 years. I was so very unhappy with my life and the good things stopped happening to me. I had gained 40lbs and that guy started punching me in the head. after it happened twice I moved out of the house we had been living in together. I was very depressed for the next couple years but I started going to the gym anyways, lost some of that weight and slowly started getting interested in meditation again. I also recently started taking a course on learning to read Tarot Cards. And was researching natural dreads and found this site!!!!

After me and that guy were apart for about 1 year I started getting myself back and am starting to get the meditating tingles in my hand again and they have also started happening on the bottom of my right foot as well. After 5 years, reaching that point in my meditations that took me months to reach happened after 1 time.
I wonder what will happen next!!!

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Megan (32) (@fearlessldr) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@yonatron829, I don’t know how old you are but I assume that you’re in high school. And man, I gotta say…..in my own experience, looking back at who was popular in high school, and seeing what they are doing now with their lives 7 years later…..things are different. They peaked too soon. Things came so easily for them and they continued to stay in their comfort zones and a lot of them have become relatively boring people. In fact, it’s the dorky or quiet or weird people who have grown into themselves and are doing fascinating things with their lives. Make use of lonely times to focus on the things that interest you and make something of it.
Who gives a fuck if you aren’t popular like these other guys. I was once in your mindset too and so I understand where you’re coming from. But trust me, you’re going to get a lot tougher than these other guys and make so much more of yourself because of it.

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@retrohippylove, After useing the search bar here for kabalah, all the threads are older ones. So last night I was going to make a fresh thread on the subject, but I was too tired. So it will be under the metaphysical catagory and have the word kabalah in it, since the title may already be used here. But the old threads do have some definitions on it if you want to check them out.

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DaFunks (366)M (@Dafunks) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

I feel the same. Right now I am sick of life. I am not sure why….

Dark times… very dark

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@dafunks, I know how you feel. “My dark night of the soul” lasted like 10 years.

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DaFunks (366)M (@Dafunks) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@vovinawol, I have been up and down like this for many years. Just last night something happened to me. I am not sure what set me off.

I was even contemplating suicide. I have not even thought like that for years.

Its like something in me just wants to give up.

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LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

I know for me, that the more I fight the river the more I get the feeling of drowning. Like being caught in a rip tide. I acually did get taken out by a real one back when I was in my 20’s, and it sucked big time.

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DaFunks (366)M (@Dafunks) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@vovinawol, Yea. I am gripping on at the moment. I feel at the moment that everything I grip onto is worthless. Its like I have nothing to hold on for.

I am sure it is just a faze.

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Nick (554) (@splashartist) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@dafunks, Stop holding on then. It may not be as bad as you think. Something in you is getting tired. I think it may be time for you to go beyond who you think you are. I cannot know for sure, but it seems like something has cracked for you.

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