Can I lose my spiritual energy?

Bex (@beckaday) 9 years, 2 months ago

I was going through an amazing awakening/ energy / consciousness shift. I was on top of the world, everything was in sync, I could feel myslef elevated at a higher level of consciousness. I was hanging out with this girl who I probably shouldn’t have, and was trying to tell her about my experience. Things spiraled downward, she said she was feeling it too but I think she was just feeding off of my energy and we went to see a Guru. We did some meditations and activities and I swear I think he sucked all of the heightened energy out of me. After this experience I feel completely let down, I went through a period of paranoia and feeling like I was giong crazy, I can’t focus, I feel unstable, and everything was literally perfect before things were just flowing so perfectly. I’m scared he stole my spirituality and I don’t know what happened. Some one please help or let me know if there is anything I can do to get myslef back on track. I have this horrible feeling that everything went wrong. He pressed into my tailbone at the base of my spine and now i’m scared he damaged my central nervous system. I feel stupid for being so trusting because I just wanted some guidance. Again, please help.

March 3, 2013 at 2:54 pm
Anonymous (0) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

No one can lose it, but they can forget.

Was it only the physical aspects of your experience that drained you or were the mental and emotional vibes part of what happened through you?

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Anonymous (130) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Banishing a ghost

The wife of a man became very sick. On her deathbed, she said to him, “I love you so much! I don’t want to leave you, and I don’t want you to betray me. Promise that you will not see any other women once I die, or I will come back to haunt you.”

For several months after her death, the husband did avoid other women, but then he met someone and fell in love. On the night that they were engaged to be married, the ghost of his former wife appeared to him. She blamed him for not keeping the promise, and every night thereafter she returned to taunt him. The ghost would remind him of everything that transpired between him and his fiancee that day, even to the point of repeating, word for word, their conversations. It upset him so badly that he couldn’t sleep at all.

Desperate, he sought the advice of a Zen master who lived near the village. “This is a very clever ghost,” the master said upon hearing the man’s story. “It is!” replied the man. “She remembers every detail of what I say and do. It knows everything!” The master smiled, “You should admire such a ghost, but I will tell you what to do the next time you see it.”

That night the ghost returned. The man responded just as the master had advised. “You are such a wise ghost,” the man said, “You know that I can hide nothing from you. If you can answer me one question, I will break off the engagement and remain single for the rest of my life.” “Ask your question,” the ghost replied. The man scooped up a handful of beans from a large bag on the floor, “Tell me exactly how many beans there are in my hand.”

At that moment the ghost disappeared and never returned.

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Dino (20) (@nosorozh) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, well if u can make yourself believe he could, then he actually may have done it. Besides, would th words of smn from the internet really be able to delete your belief that he stole your mojo?

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Chris (76) (@thebuddha) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, How did you originally begin your awakening/ energy / consciousness shift?

I went through something kind of similar.

Long-story short, after lots of searching, I had to retrace my steps and start again.

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Emma (193) (@emmaclaire) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

That sounds ridiculously scary! I feel like I lose my spirituality on a very small scale a lot. Whenever I get stressed or too busy or focused on my material life (school, work, etc.) I lose it. But when I can get some “me” time to think, I feel really at peace and I have a lot of creative, thoughtful ideas. I think you need to align with your life path, perhaps. On another note, I can’t imagine a Guru doing that. That is really disheartening if he did, I hate when people pose as spiritual teachers and exploit it. Like psychics who lie to you for money. Perhaps maybe the Guru has something completely different planned out for you and you need time to be lost in order to really appreciate your spiritual gifts. Who knows! Try to fill your heart with love and keep searching, hopefully you will find what you seek.

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Anonymous (130) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@emmaclaire, “I feel like I lose my spirituality on a very small scale a lot. Whenever I get stressed or too busy or focused on my material life (school, work, etc.) I lose it.”
I believe that is called “fatigue”.

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Emma (193) (@emmaclaire) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@seeker, No, not really, I just lose sight of my spiritual focus. I can best describe it as straying from the path I want/am meant to follow. But thank you for your input

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Anonymous (130) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@emmaclaire, yeah, it`s like you can no longer concentrate…consciousness. Fatigue.

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Emma (193) (@emmaclaire) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@seeker, Yeah but that’s not what I’m talking about. Thank you for your input but I think I know how I feel. Perhaps I am not communicating it well but please stop trying to describe my own self to me

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Dan (890) (@danfontaine) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@seeker, I like to think of two things. Awareness and focus. Bring them together and God starts emerging on your ass.
Gotta stay sharp, gotta eat good and rest well.

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Anonymous (130) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@emmaclaire, i am sorry if i offended you with my inquisitive nature, sometimes my curiosity gets the best of me. Namaste

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Anonymous (130) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@danfontaine,who knows.

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Dan (890) (@danfontaine) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, Dude no, you had a breakthrough but the flex couldn’t sustain, you snapped back. You’re not ready.

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Dan (890) (@danfontaine) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@seeker, OH ME ME ME, PICK ME

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nikkihaze (33) (@nikkihaze) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, It’s possible that actually you just went through a huge spiritual clearing. Sometimes when someone clears out a lot of energy that they were holding onto from their past, all of their energy is now lessened so everything feels a lot less intense, including spiritual energy. Plus your ego is probably kind of freaking out from losing so much of itself which is why you feel so fearful. Just try to stay calm and know that everything is okay, better than okay. You are beginning anew which is wonderful. Decide what kind of life you want to live and then form your beliefs around that vision and you will create exactly what you want. Law of attraction. Also don’t hang out with energy vampires like that girl you mentioned.

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Bex (0) (@beckaday) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Thank you guys I really really appreciate all of the input. I do think maybe my ego was convincing me I was some kind of saint or something at the beginning of the experience because of the huge amounts of energy I was experiencing. But yes It was mental and emotional as well as physical. It all started with a mental revelation about consciousness, energy, interconnectedness, and then I started feeling the chakras open up, mainly my heart chakra and then my third eye. I didn’t know what was happening, I just vaguely knew about chakras, but I started seeing things differently and was just super in tune. There was a short period of time where I felt like I was in an outer body experience, my perception of everything was just really profound and it was definitely a high. But again I didnt really know what was going on so I wanted to go to the Guru… Then the fear kicked in. I felt disconnected from everyone and my ‘old life’ … I started to get really emotionally and mentally unbalanced and I’ve never felt like that before, but maybe this was just the upheaval of so many burried emotion? I had also just gone vegan so maybe I was malnourished too? But ya I have never felt so much fear and sadness take hold of me. I have been really freaked out that this guy messed me up, but right now I’m seeing that there might just be many sides to what I’m going through and I just have to get myslef back on my inner path of fulfilment. If anyone has any tips to figuring out what that is let me know. – Actually, nevermind I guess I have to! I just never knew this stuff was real – life is nuts.
@thebuddha @emmaclaire @cosmicleamonade

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Anonymous (251) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, It sounds like we’ve been through something of a similar journey recently. I don’t think you can lose it. Whatever ‘it’ is, it’s always there trying to find ways to get you to listen. You can choose not to sometimes, and you can forget. You can definitely forget. It sounds like you psyched yourself out a bit, and got caught up in that. You can get back to that place, it’s really not gone far, it’s just chilling, waiting for you to drop by whenever you feel like it :)

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Ellie (1,363)M (@tangledupinplaid21) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, I’ve had similar experiences. Feeling like I had progressed so far in my inner work only to regress rapidly and feel like I’m back at ground zero. I think perhaps you telling that girl about your experiences might have had something to do with you losing it.

Describing your spiritual progress to another is sort of like making an identity out of it. Once this happens you create (often unconsciously) judgments and expectations, and the moment things don’t go according to your fabricated ideas of how they should or how your newly spiritually advanced self “should” have it, it crumbles. I am only speaking from my own experience here. I find it much easier to keep making the “right” choices when I keep my progress to myself.

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Anonymous (119) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Alright I can definitely relate to what you’re talking about man.

Whenever I go into society, as soon as I pull off onto the Highway on my morning route to my University – I can instantaneously feel my energy being drained from me. I’ve already fallen into a routine. A system. A machine. Everyone around me is in cars, driving to their jobs. Traffic sometimes is heavy. It’s all very, very depressing when you honestly think about it. But then, one day – I noticed two orange butterflies flying in sync while I was in neutral at a stoplight.

Life is really what you make of it. I’m learning to harness my spiritual energy more so by being more attuned with the real world, not our perception of ‘reality’ that humans have created. No matter how much money one will obtain, no matter how much people will die today – everything continues to move as planned in the natural order of the world.

I’m trying to be more conscious of my routines, my habits, the people I associate myself with and let affect me, and most importantly – MY THOUGHTS.

On a side note, I’m actively practicing semen retention in the hopes of harnessing and transmutating sexual energy/spiritual energy/chakra/ankh.

Just be aware my friend, and always be awake.

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Jstaytrue2self (0) (@jayayeone) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

I think you can lose it i dont know how its done but i’ve seen it happen. When you dont have it in you to speak up and express how you feel. When you dont have it in you, the ability to express yourself genuinely and have a loss of humor and you just work everyday without a voice then that person has lost their spirit.

So I suggest that no matter what you should always express how you feel no matter what other people think because you are you so be you! But remember there is a time and place for everything. Be you be humble.

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VIII (34) (@triplemind) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

i give as much energy as im able to to everything around me. losing is earning giving is getting. maybe have healthier boundaries with that lying girl and be your own guru. dont clench tightly to your energy as its not yours. be humbled and patient and youll see what this rough patches purpose is. love you human, remember this too shall pass.

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Ashley (0) (@wideeyedash) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Since the only thing that is real is the spiritual world, you can not just lose it. You can of course lose your awareness of the fact that you are a spiritual being. But believe me when I say, all there is energy and spirituality. You should read Mystic Pete’s new ebook on Sex and Mysticism..I love his take on spirituality. MysticPete.com

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who (557) (@season) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@beckaday, I think you can probably recharge/repair. Don’t let anyone fuck with the base of your spine, or your root or sexuality at all. It’s yours. Gurus are still men/women and the more someone knows the more potentially dangerous they could be.

Try talking to nature :)

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Hessona (0) (@ruffsen) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

I just fixed it for you, it gave me chills down my spine.
Dont visit him again. I dont wanna be tracked.

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Bex (0) (@beckaday) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@ruffsen, Thank you so much. I felt it. I will definitely be more careful.

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