Two days ago I took LSD and then MDMA and it seems to have changed my life in a pretty significant way. I was wondering if there is anyone else out there that has done this and felt the need to make substantial life changes as a result. It is a very hard experience to put into words but I felt that I could understand all my troubles in such a detailed way and I could understand all the answers to those problems so easily when before it seemed so complex. The day after the trip was pretty hard and was a good time to reflect.
If anyone has much experience with this could you give me some feedback on how you dealt with feeling the need to make changes? I feel lost at the moment and I think I need some guidance. Sorry if I have been a bit vague, I’m finding difficult to explain myself. I feel like meditation would be a great way to deal with what I have learnt, but that is only one way I can think of dealing with this.
Walk away and work on what you’ve experienced and don’t go back for a while until you feel the draw again. I’ve candy flipped once and I will never go back. It took me to a level of my subconscious mind that was so terrifying, personal, and confusing. After that I was sent on a journey to banish fear all together.
I haven’t candy flipped, but i’d like to tell you whats on my mind.
I’ve had LSD four times, of each of my experiences the only one that brought me to a closer state of being in which I loved myself and the changes I was making in my life was the first. It was like your saying now, all of my problems seemed so clear and simple to solve, but I couldn’t, and still can’t, put the exact feelings into words.
Anyways the feeling eventually wore down. I had wanted to change my life in so many ways and I had never done anything so grand and immediate before, so I was kinda lost.
I told my family how i wanted to change, as well as my friends, thinking that would help enact the change, but the only one who needed to know about what was going on was me. I foolishly expected the world to change according to my pure will, without actually putting effort into it.
So heres my two-bit piece of advice…don’t tell everyone it concerns how you want to change your life, nor why you want to change. Simply begin the changes you want, without giving anyone a notice for them to sign 3 times etc. And follow through, i half assed my attempts.
Thats how i wish i’d begun changing my life after a meaningful LSD trip. Instead i slowly lost that great feeling of oncoming change, of a great thing just around the corner, and i’d began to think that the changes i wanted in my life were part of the afterglow of LSD, that the best way to help enact changes was to experience life through LSD again…and again…and again never fulfilling my desire for intense change.
Jump into the fuckin water!!! ^_^
I have candyflipped many times. You have no choice but to manifest what you learned. You must do it with all your will. Otherwisr it will drive you mad to know the void between what what could be and what is. My eyes have been opened so many times and yet, despite my reverence for the vision, I have let the inertia of life keep me from manifesting what I meant to become…what I was shown. Now my consciousness teeters on the abysd and I see the universe with a discordance that is driving me insane. Don’t make my mistake. What you have been shown needs to become your life’s calling. To manifest empathetic love in this world.
RIP Sasha Shulgin
I just candyflipped for the first time 2 days ago and it has done more for me than years of therapy combined. On my trip I learned self-love and became more confident in my body, I learned the importance of staying present in the moment (because you will miss out by focusing on the “big” things – like money, careers etc). And I learned how to trust my intuition. I felt the true integration of mind and body in a way I never could in therapy. I truly felt it. In order to keep the integration alive, I wrote down everything I learned the next day. Writing has always helped me process my emotions and further ingrain what I’ve learned.
If you are currently in therapy, I recommend telling your therapist about your experience. I am lucky because my therapist was very supportive of my choices and is now helping me integrate my learnings even more in our sessions.
The drugs can show you the way but it’s up to you to take what you’ve learned and apply it into your daily life. For me that’s been writing, personal reflection, and ongoing therapy. I’m operating from a place of love and giving instead of from a place of “lack” – changing the motivation behind your actions is the key. It’s not a cure but it is a path to clarity.