Completely lost in life. I have money, weed and car. What to do?

 Troy (@illusionist) 7 years, 8 months ago

Greetings, I have long since roamed and skulked these forums (Hoping to see some familiar old timers here) and simply observing the discussions.

Needless to say, it feels as if my own life has stagnated. In my head, I have a tiny Napoleon with liberal ideals running my awesome imagination and life. Yet, I have acquired a half o of the dankest, going to have a thousand in the bank account soon, a vehicle and literally no bills to pay. I also have freedom to go with the car, licence and ID. I am however, only 20. So bars/clubs the real spots to find yourself are off limits for now ;(.

That said, what would you guys do. I have all the preps in place, no duties or responsibilities (I took the sem of college as well!) nor do I work. I have been sitting around reading sci fi books, smoking, eating whatever like a pompous french noble. I know I live at home and what not, so to fulfill my desire for sex I simply go online, find a transsexual escort and make love. Oh and, I play a game called StarCraft II, and I made Diamond rank in it. That’s really hard, but I did it. I brought sperrys and abercombie and fitch clothing, I have a closet full of nice clothes that I like and need.

This all said, my tiny Napoleon is now sitting here high, with his tiny French Empire ready to go. I have Viva La Vida on blast on my mp3 as I sit here in my shed backyard, atop my tiny throne chair. Sometimes I think of the song Angry chair by Alice in Chains, or perhaps even the movie Apocalypse Now (My parents think I do online classes currently or for whatever reason allow me to live here, smoke, use the car etc…). Whatever the feeling, I know the Emperor tarot card is with me, and I am ready to undertake a new campaign.

I have made love to a tranny escort, currently game and smoke all the time, live very easily and have plenty of cash, I’m decently in shape and not too bad looking. What should I do know I ask, visit a art musuem, a church? What is the point of life.

There is no point, I sit here. Atop this little throne and I see life is nothing but functions. School, college, job, work, bills, death. Mess it up, you get lost. Get a bad job, you mess the equation up. you are a reject of society, you dont make that much and that says something about your character (YOUR GODDAM BEING!). People of all ages, thanks to the greatness of our culture, society and Capitalism are somewhere along this equation, others are bad at math so they fluke or decide to not perform the requirement.

Whatever the case, what shall my broken mind latch itself on now. I am used up of all concepts, no more writings or reading useless stuff. Give me something to do. A random suggestion to travel to in Florida, U.S. (Where I live.) and I’ll take it up, thats how bored and lost my Emperor mind is. Lets have a Hangover adventure.

February 3, 2014 at 3:24 pm
TheSkaFish (962)M (@theskafish) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

@illusionist, why the transsexuals? Even if they were just regular escorts, I still think that’s a bad idea because it puts you at risk of all kinds of horrible, deadly, and uncurable diseases. I’d quit while I’m ahead and stop that if I were you before it’s too late.

Not to rain on your parade, but it seems like this life you lead is unsustainable. If your parents found out that you were not taking online courses as they believe, and they will sooner or later, would they allow you to continue living this way? It just sounds to me like this can’t last.

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TheSkaFish (962)M (@theskafish) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

@illusionist, why the transsexuals? Men who have sex with men is one of the highest-risk groups out there for STDs. Even if they were just regular escorts, I still think that’s a bad idea because it puts you at risk of all kinds of horrible, deadly, and uncurable diseases. I’d quit while I’m ahead and stop that if I were you before it’s too late.

Not to rain on your parade, but it seems like this life you lead is unsustainable. If your parents found out that you were not taking online courses as they believe, and they will sooner or later, would they allow you to continue living this way? It just sounds to me like this can’t last.

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Some_Ego-reinforcing_Label (66) (@johnkorvac) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

Soak into your lostness… be in the lost…

if your mind wanders back into perceived path of “meaning” whether socially accepted or not, embrace this transitive state until your mind returns back to state of aimlessness…

the ebb and flow of our cognitive complacency is as natural as rhythmic waves of light and sound particles of our universe … our brain has not evolved to perfection… forgive it’s erratic tendencies… accept it… flow with it.

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Anonymous (16) (@) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

Do what you need to do. You’re in control, no use asking how to live your life.

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Mr. Arbiter (86) (@snaysler) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

Buy a bunch of weed and drive endlessly around the country exploring new places buying gas with that money you’ve got.

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inna (95) (@paintedbeings) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

Other people are gonna tell you to live a life they wanted to live. Get into the other chair yourself and tell him what to do bro, write a book about it. Go

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nyx (12) (@wanderingmoons) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

Find little things that make you happy and that bring joy to your life, open your eyes to your surroundings and become one with it’s beauty. Find little things by trying new things, some may or may not spark your interest but life is your empty cup so I’d suggest you look for the best ingredients to fill it with. (you should go travel to various exotic places perhaps and learn different cultures and languages, that is what I would do if I were you.)

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Ray Butler (1,423)M (@trek79) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

I have an interest in chicks with dicks too brother, I haven’t been so lucky as to bang one yet, but good for you.

I’d say do what you said; go to each city in America, one by one, live in your car, do crappy little jobs here and there to make a bit of scratch, go to a gym to use their showers, and spend the rest of your time going to every museum in the city and learning about art, artists, technology and nature.

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Ray Butler (1,423)M (@trek79) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

I have an interest in chicks with dicks too brother, I haven’t been so lucky as to bang one yet, but good for you.

I’d say do what you said; go to each city in America, one by one, live in your car, do crappy little jobs here and there to make a bit of scratch, go to a gym to use their showers, and spend the rest of your time going to every museum in the city and learning about art, artists, technology and nature.

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Troy (9) (@illusionist) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

It can’t which is why I must launch a great undertaking that will test the limits of my imagination, soul and mental states of being. I suppose I could settle for acid and a music festival but… I want something bigger. Thank Hangover epicness but more.

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Troy (9) (@illusionist) 7 years, 8 months ago ago

As of today I have made no progress beyond going to a 7-11 and buying some gummy worms. I then came home and ate them, smoked some more and am now playing CoH2.

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