Over the last couple days my paranoid delusions have subsided. I refrained from taking any supplements.
But last night I eyeballed some 5-htp and took it. The paranoia came back full swing and I found myself unable to sleep from fear. Logically I knew there was nothing, but emotionally I was a wreak again.
5-HTP seems to have a lesser known ability to really mess up you’re emotions and mood. Although often it is touted as a mood-booster, many of us are going to react differently to it.
I’m imagining that this actually is the source of the paranoia, and not the very low dose of methamphetamine I took the night before – I had taken the 5-HTP the night of the incident, at least once. Possibly twice.
Bring on the meth!!! No, but seriously, do you think it’s possible that seeing as it was only a few days ago that any drug could bring on the delusional paranoia?
I dunno though, but I feel like if I’d had an episode, that a lot of things could then start another within a certain amount of time after.
Hey now, just cause my brain is fat and untrained doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I still have the chance to exercise it and make it useable you know and although I much appreciate the enlightening answer you gave to my question, I still feel unsatisfied.
I am interested to know whether or not JonH thinks it was solely the 5-HTP that caused the paranoia or a combination of 5-HTP and something else in his system. I also am interested about how long he’s been taking the 5-HTP and any other supplements.
But that’s beside the point, back to what you said, What do you mean by “your body takes care of it.” Are you referring to the positive thoughts you create? Please, be patient in explaining your wisdom here, as I said before, my brain is rather… unfit right now.
That’s why I’m more interested why JonH does this to himself, because paranoia isn’t the cause of what he is going through life right now and I’m sure if he was picky with his friends and not just experimenting what a drug would do to his emotions – his experience would be different.
There is no relation between any drug that alters a specific emotion. Period. Every drug alters all your emotions and if your dominant is what you experienced before, or what you experience always – it’s going to be intensified because of you, not because of the drug. (Unless you inject happiness in your life in your veins) I admire what he’s doing because he’s sharing a personal experience but not a drug experience. That’s what I’m saying.
This is difficult to follow but this is what I’m understanding, correct me if I’m wrong:
1.JonH experienced the paranoia of having a well established drug dealer kill him because he felt bad for what he did.
2.If JonH had better friends and … “not just experimenting what a drug would do to his emotions” say doing the drug for spiritual purposes instead, he wouldn’t have become paranoid.
3.No chemical (drug) can alter one specific emotion but rather every chemical alters all the emotions, so your expectations of a drug are going to be made a reality because of you.
Is this correct?
If I have to tell you the truth though, when I take that drug I’d make sure that I am healthy and have healthy relationships, I’d be confident in myself and then I’d probably even drink alcohol.
Because paranoia, you morons, comes from the guilt that you did something really bad. Not from a drug. It’s a mental condition, not a side effect.
Why are you doing this to yourself @ijesuschrist ?