don't feel alive?

Anonymous (@) 8 years, 9 months ago

hey there! this is my first post on here, but i’ve been lurking for quite some time

every now and then i get this weird feeling & i’m hoping you guys can help me work it out:

i don’t feel alive… it’s like my senses are muted, my feelings are confined to a narrow range of ups and downs, and nothing seems exciting. i feel as though i’m trapped in a tiny box & can’t seem to find a way out…

my life, as it is now, is in stark contrast to what it was a few months ago & hopefully to what it will be in a few months. i spent the summer backpacking in alaska, where i was constantly on the move. i rarely spent two days in the same place, and had a lot of time to think and reevaluate my life. but eventually i had to go back to school & now i’m bogged down in what feels like a hellish waiting room, hoping for my life to start back up. all the hard work & change that happened over the summer seems lost & i’ve returned to the same dull hamster wheel of endless obligations. but in a few months, i’ll be starting college in a new city, away from everyone and everything i’ve ever known. question is…

what do i do right now? i’ve still got a bunch of stuff to take care of and, as much as i’d love to, i can’t go wild and give away all my possessions & become a nomad… how do i recapture that sense of freedom when i’m anything but free? and what about next year, when i’ve got more work and more responsibility?

ahhh! any answers are appreciated :)

February 19, 2013 at 5:22 pm
Amberrr (2) (@royalty49) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

Have you tried meditating?

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Anonymous (0) (@) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

@royalty49, yes, with varying success ~ it’s been difficult as of late though

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Anonymous (272) (@) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

Exercise, art, music… anything to change your brain chemistry! I preach this all the time, it works. Try to stay away from harmful drugs.

Meditating doesn’t work (for me) as good as shamanic techniques.

Try it, trust me.

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DANM!! (107) (@deej) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

@royalty49, hey, I feel this way sometimes. A lot more in the past though. What is one thing that you want to achieve that is within your grasp that still takes work? Do one thing every day towards that goal, one tiny step. This will do a lot for you. Go where you want to go, why waste your time?
Yes I meditate, but I feel that is more of a buffer to settle my mind when it’s overwhelmed and to understand my goals and reasons more. Hmm try not to get stuck with meditation, it’s more of a tool than anything not a life ;)

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The Panolipsist (22) (@panolipsist) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

A professor of philosophy stood before his class with some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks about two inches in diameter. He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was full.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly and watched as the pebbles rolled into the open areas between the rocks. The professor then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They chuckled and agreed that it was indeed full this time.

The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. The sand filled the remaining open areas of the jar. “Now,” said the professor, “I want you to recognize that this jar signifies your life. The rocks are the truly important things, such as family, health and relationships. If all else was lost and only the rocks remained, your life would still be meaningful. The pebbles are the other things that matter in your life, such as work or school. The sand signifies the remaining “small stuff” and material possessions.

If you put sand into the jar first, there is no room for the rocks or the pebbles. The same can be applied to your lives. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are truly important.

Pay attention to the things in life that are critical to your happiness and well-being. Take time to get medical check-ups, play with your children, go for a run, write your grandmother a letter. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, or fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first – things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just pebbles and sand.

Finding time in the day for fitness or participating in other athletic endeavors should be considered a “rock” for us all. Physiologically, working out releases endorphins in the body. These endorphins are natural pain-relievers produced by the body. This is what gives us the natural high experienced after a workout. This natural high has the potential to positively influence our daily interactions by making us feel better about ourselves. Make fitness a rock solid priority in your life and reap the benefits.

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The Panolipsist (22) (@panolipsist) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

That is a great story that is all over the internet.
Don’t get stuck in the hamster wheel. this happen to me. With all my focus on my job, house payment, meetings, and other mundane meaningless crap I forgot to live. You have to make time for what you love FIRST

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Winningedge (2) (@winner) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

What you do is avoid all the common things that normal people do. Like: getting a job, car, house, spouse, stuff, ph, address, family, etc etc. All that will enslave you. If anything start a small biz that you can do from any location. Like an online biz perhaps. And What you can do instead is just start reading some books on living off the grid. I wanted to tell you more and give you some ideas but I can’t. If I say too much online it could come back to haunt me. But again there’s tons of info out there to help you understand how things work out there. Good luck.

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