I am empty, lost and confused.
I don’t know what the fuck to do. Today I just lay in bed for half of the day. Then I was surfing and playing computer games. It just makes me feel numb and annoyed.
I can’t really feel and I can’t relate to anything or anyone. Not even my own life, really. Even words don’t seem to mean anything. My mind is just confused. Trying to understand what I can’t possibly understand or dabbling in stupid empty thoughts about metaphysics or sex. They are all the same anyway, just trying to escape I guess.
Doing stuff takes so much energy, every little thing. Even if I knew what to do I probably wouldn’t have the strength. I just want to rest, but I don’t find it.
I am not sure why I am even writing this. Most of the time it just makes me more anxious when I write stuff on the internet.
Anway thanks for reading.