Empty and lost

 Benjamin (@benjayk)7 years, 2 months ago

I am empty, lost and confused.
I don’t know what the fuck to do. Today I just lay in bed for half of the day. Then I was surfing and playing computer games. It just makes me feel numb and annoyed.

I can’t really feel and I can’t relate to anything or anyone. Not even my own life, really. Even words don’t seem to mean anything. My mind is just confused. Trying to understand what I can’t possibly understand or dabbling in stupid empty thoughts about metaphysics or sex. They are all the same anyway, just trying to escape I guess.

Doing stuff takes so much energy, every little thing. Even if I knew what to do I probably wouldn’t have the strength. I just want to rest, but I don’t find it.

I am not sure why I am even writing this. Most of the time it just makes me more anxious when I write stuff on the internet.
Anway thanks for reading.

April 24, 2014 at 10:14 am
Marlon (97) (@shoeopener) 7 years, 2 months ago ago

Look at people’s eyes from a place of wondering instead of curiosity and prejudice.

I don’t know how that worked but it did.

amiabull (0) (@amiabull) 6 years, 1 month ago ago

Yes! Are you still out there? I want to talk to you. 

Andy (15) (@a1993h) 6 years, 1 month ago ago

Sounds like you’re spending too much time up in your head, dude. Go for a walk in the woods, on the beach, somewhere peaceful. Doing so helps draw me back into the world when I feel how you described.

MonkeyZazu (1,865)M (@monkeyzazu) 6 years, 1 month ago ago

Agreed. When I’m feeling depressed, going to the park or just getting out really does help.

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