Hello everyone, I’ve joined HE to share my experience with the hopes that any of you can shed some light on my experience.
About six months ago now, I went through something that I have never experienced before – since then, I have been searching for answers to what it actually was.
I’m going to write it as briefly as possible, although I do feel I could write thousands of words trying to describe it, and still not even scratch the surface.
I was in a good life position, really enjoying how everything was going. I had been listening to an audio version of the Tao Te Ching on YouTube, in my apartment, for about 2 weeks, on loop. I feel this may or may not have induced what happened. Either way, it gave me a great outlook on life and kept me in a relaxed, tranquil state.
I was walking along a street, and from nowhere I had an extremely intense feeling of joy/excitement/warmth/happiness overtake my body. My whole body felt as though it weighed as much as a feather. I felt as though I was walking on air. It was like the snapshot feeling of happiness and excitement you get whenever something wonderful happens, but it lasted for minutes.
It then felt as though my mind was trying to search for answers to what this was that I’m going through. My thoughts were extremely clear and everything seemed to be transparent to me. The feeling was that I had ‘arrived’, I had reached a milestone, or got to a place of achievement – spiritually, or in some kind of ‘knowing’.
I then had an overwhelming feeling of loss take over me, I worried I would never see any of my family again. Every thought I had came in an instant, rapidly and vividly, clearly and precise. The whole emotion of my minds explanation’ for this serenity and darkness was dissolved and broken down in split seconds. That’s how it felt. I was having multiple thoughts at the same time and feeling every emotion.
Towards the end, it started to feel like I was in a computer simulation. I felt like I had somebody sitting behind a desk programming me, yet I still had an element of free will. I felt like a speck of dust in an ocean.
My mind settled on death. I genuinely believed I had died. I was no longer living in the reality I had previously lived in for the entirety of my life. I was going to die, and witness it as a 3rd person – (knowing death is imminent and I would see/spectate myself physically dying, yet I would remain in this new reality)
The whole thing was over in around 30 minutes. It was the most frightening thing I have ever been through and also the most wonderful at the same time. Pure joy combined with terror.
I also must say it was the most genuine experience I have ever had. Every part of it is just as vivid as it was on the day. It was such a realistic, concrete experience which seemed, and still does seem more ‘real’ than anything I have ever gone through before. This wasn’t like a dream where I woke up after, and could say to myself “Oh, just a dream.”.
Still, after writing all that, it does not justify what happened. I have done a lot of reading to try and understand what happened. If I could summarise this with words I would use:
Near death experience
Thanks for reading, I look forward to discussing more interesting things with all of you.
I have experienced this feeling multiple times and am still searching for answers but i think its something to do with understanding true reality such as the idea of yin-yang that we are everything and nothing at the same time an idea that has been making me think about life in a different way recently is basically was i alive in my dreams before my body and does that make my dreams more real than this physical realm or are they the same experience im just perceiving them as a different experience due to things such as dense reality and what not which i think can be explained with the “don’t judge a book by its cover” quote. hopefully this is helpful i kinda went off topic a bit but yea :)
Thank you for your response. It was interesting to get a second opinion and also nice to know someone else has experienced something similar.
How close to what I wrote was your experience – what elements of what I wrote most resonated with you?
My experience has somewhat struck me off focus in life and almost given me a ‘reboot’ – I now sort of feel I don’t know who I am, what I want or where I’m going. Although, that has always been a trait of mine anyway! ;)
If you ever find out anything more about it, please post again.
It could have very well been your old self dying a symbolic death, making way for your new self. This occurs as one becomes enlightened. After all, how would you expect to encounter spiritual evolution without having the old self die and make way for the new self?
I do have a couple questions. #1 do you recall exactly where you were physically when it happened? Can you send me a PM with that location? #2 had you experienced any formidable levels of trauma in the hours, days or weeks leading up to this experience?
“I now sort of feel I don’t know who I am, what I want or where I’m going.” as if to say you have been, “Born again”? :)
That would make sense to me. I have always been interested in spirituality and the idea of ‘more’ out there.
The way you word it seems so natural to you, I could agree with your explanation.
There was no trauma surrounding this experience.
It’s probably worth reiterating that there was enormous feeling of physical joy going on at the same time. It was as though I had tuned into a reality that only a select few know about and enjoy.
I did PM where it happened.
I am forever grateful of your response.
Brothaaaaa, you need to calm the hell down. We’ve all been through this (well, all of us really enlightened ones). When my mom died I spent four days thinking I was dead. When I came out of that I was happier than I’d ever been. My dad sent me to a lot of therapists cause I used to hang out by her grave all the time smoking weed. But I can’t be mad at my dad. Euphoria is something you get to when you’ve finally become what God told you to be. My advice is pray. The answer will come.
I’m interested in what thoughts were going through your head right before this experience, how much you’d eaten that day, how much sleep you’d had, etc.
Only once have I experienced something similar to what I think you experienced;
I had been up all night working on a school project and around 4 am I decided to take a shower and “begin my day”. Once I was under the water I felt overwhelmed with joy and began laughing until I could barely breathe and begun crying for joy at which point it became an overwhelming sensation of sadness and I started bawling. Then I became incredibly scared, I felt as though I was going to die at any moment.
This whole experience only lasted maybe 5-10 minutes but had seemingly come from no where. I felt all these emotions with great intensity but had no idea why, I was not laughing at anything in particular and I was not crying over some event. My mind made no reasons for the emotions. Every so often, for no reason I still feel overwhelmed with joy, to the point where I can’t help but to laugh, but I have not experienced the sadness or fear with no (real or imagined) reason since.
At the time I assumed the unexplainable emotions were due to a lack of sleep, now I just assume its because I’m crazy. Either way, is what I experienced similar to yours in that it had no reason behind it? I had never really given the experience much thought until I read this thread.
Definitely similar in the sense that it came from nowhere.
There was no pain, trauma or stress around the event. Completely random.
It almost feels as though the more I talk about it, the weaker the conveyance gets. It was truly, in the literal sense ‘out of this world’ in my opinion.
I will treasure this moment for the rest of my life. I have found several angles of exploration that I play with in attempts to get explanations. It’s wonderful.
Thanks for your post.
Nice, very intense spiritual experience. It’s like walking through a portal, a gateway to another level of understanding. When walking through one of these its usually because you followed your own individual signs for an either brief amount of time or you just entered bliss state :D
i experienced my first time warp when picking up an emerald clatta ring for my girlfriend at the Great North music and arts festival a few weeks ago. It’s funny cause the further bus and all the OG’s from woodstock were FUCKING there!!!!! So coming into that feeling of us recreating a woodstock culture where everyone lives in a commune and shares/trades to get buy really brought out a huge light of hope for me.
That’s an incredible experience, walking through gateways of bliss, knowledge, and understanding, Portals come in many different forms and most we don’t even realize were going through because they’re part of our EVERYDAY routine ;)
I have had the first feelings but not so much what followed. I have felt that pure joy, light as a feather feeling and it has brought me to tears on occasion. A feeling that you can interpret all the senses more and really appreciate the beauty that is around us. I think its our mind just filtering out all the extra BS that is around us. A sort of temporary clarity.
Your self realised that it does not exist as a thing but is an illusion created by mind, as are all “things”. Your attachment to others you love pulled you back from the experience of self death which is a truly beautiful thing. Know that if you do let go of fear and witness the higher consciousness you will still create a sense of self, but as a process, far more situation appropriate and loving. I have an audiobook all about it here https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=oOy9yMN4AJk