before I ramble on & tell you my whole life story. I have a serious question.
Does or has any one felt such a high level of disgust for their entire family that you want to legitimately disown yourself from them? Including mother, father ect….?
I have a huge feeling of disgust especially now that I am older and understand things better but my disgust have grown stronger. My parents are so old fashion and the thing is that plus we aren’t religious that in this house I will NEVER in a million I will have my own privacy can barely go out with my friends and the curfew which is lile an hour in the morning and when I reach home I have to tell them what I did (obligatory) My mom always watching what I feel calling me fat when literally my friends tell me I’m thin which I can definitely see it myself (I may have a huge low self confidence but I literally try my best to let my parents not bring me down) I feel like my mom is trying to make me in the person she wanted her self to be. I feel like my life is being controlled by them when I literally am feeling this emotion of disgust I want to run AWAY! I feel like I can’t be me feeling the presence of always being watched by them.” I am not in drugs or any sort of gang related when I know that doesn’t define me don’t compare me to others!!!!” does words I want to shout to them ” I am not perfect!!! Let me be me!!” but I just can’t I decided to stand at a coiner and it and be silent and pretend to be im happy with the family they gave me