I had a dream the other day.
I was walking down a city street when this person appeared to show me my life. Sort of like It’s a Wonderful Life or A Christmas Carol, except it was only my future and instead of seeing how it affected other people, I only saw my actions. Honestly, it seemed pretty mediocre. Definitely not the life I wanted.
When it was over, my guide offered me a choice. I could take the life they showed me and that would be my fate (ie no changing it, nothing but what I was shown) or I could choose to make my own life, whether that means following my dream, following a new dream, or ending up mediocre anyway. The catch is, if I chose the latter, I would forfeit any sort of meaningfulness in my life, good or bad. My life wouldn’t affect the world in anyway.
I woke up before I could make a decision.
So my question for you is this: would you give up a chance to matter for a chance to follow your dream? Or would you sacrifice being happy for the sake of being important, even if there’s no guarantee that you’ll be either?
The thing is I believe is that no matter what you do in life, whether you’re mediocre or important, you affect people around you. YOU exist and with that comes encounters with others. You could walk to the gas station and meet someone who is depressed and say a simple few words you were taught as a kid (that affected you) and change that person’s perception and life completely. Everyone has purpose. Those who believe they are not powerful or important forget about the power of death. Death changes reality, it knocks out the old and brings in new life. Furthermore, if you were to die your family and friends would be sent on a different path than if you still existed.
I have this thought about destiny and fate. . . It’s two sides of the same coin. Fate can be you choosing your path and following your dreams and CREATING that fate, or fate can be something that is CHOOSEN for you (i.e. purpose). However, in both purpose is born and crafted. You must have a dream of who/where you wish to be. You must have a dream of what you wish to happen to you. Everyone does.
The ones thought to be crazy are the ones that choose a surprise. . . that something is going to happen but they have no idea of what that’s going to be, they usually just wish to be happy whatever that means to them. I choose the life of the surprise where I follow myself and my intuitions at the same time which has led me to some difficult crossroads and will continue to do so but for now I don’t know where I’m going but i’m going. . .
I’ve always thought about fate as a sort of “path of least” resistance. The way things turn out if you don’t make a conscious choice.
The way it was in the dream, it was almost as if you stopped existing to anyone but yourself. Impossible to affect anything in any significant way. Sort of the reverse of It’s a Wonderful Life, I guess.