I have known about meditation for a long time but only recently started practicing it on a daily basis. One thing I have found usually happens to me while I am meditating is that I will start to feel smaller. Almost sink into myself. While at the same time have a feeling of expanding and being closer to everything.
These two seem like they should contradict themselves but the experience is there and it is amazing.
Really just posting this to share my experience and see what you guys think.
In meditation, all motion becomes illusion in the still space of 0. Feelings are just vibratory motion made aware of by your brain, the conduit between You and not you. The reality of what you felt is justified due to the inherent nature of All “things” expanding and contracting in this multi-verse of You. That “contradiction” is totally normal and easily understood in this space of Knowing, as Im sure you know.
Normally consciousness is spread all throughout the body, but during meditation you can bring it to a single point of focus, or expand it into your environment. It seems as though your doing both :)
Maybe the shrinking sensation is that your losing your sense of self, or your default everyday perceived awareness of self, as your consciousness expands?
I would agree there. I felt my self (ego or self-importance) shrink while feeling my connection to everything else around me grow.
I like to use a personal mantra of “I am nothing, I am everything” because I feel the connection to it. I am nothing in the grand scale of things as I am insignificant but I am everything as everything I perceive is everything I know. I like to hold the contradictions in my mind as a focal point for my thoughts.
I feel this method of deliberate contradiction works well for me.
Again just sharing my experiences as this is probably one of the best places to do so as most people who frequent this site are like minded in at least some ways.
In meditation you experience a singularity, wherein you lose your sense of depth and dimensions. Without spacial formations for the mind to differentiate between, the mind interprets it as a perpetual “nothing.” That might be why you feel “small” and yet huge. You are everything and you are nothing.
The biggest thing for me was that I was still aware of my surroundings. in fact if anything I was more aware of my surroundings than before I started meditating.
I think that for me it was more that the boundary between “me” and “my surroundings” became blurred. They were still there but not as strong as they normally are. Personally I feel that still being aware of my surroundings but them almost becoming a part of me is really what I look for in meditation.
I am not looking to use meditation as a form of escape from reality but rather a ground to what is going on around me. Being aware that I am part of something bigger than myself whether I like it or not.
I am glad you posted this as I feel the same way. My entire being goes inside my mind, echoes throughout my consciousness as it crosses over to my subconscious and they become one and the same. The level of awareness at this moment is indeed absolute magic.