last friday the 13th i won $20 on a scratch off and then hooked up with a guy i’d been in love with for a longgggg timeeeeee. that was also the event that sparked the realization that all the intense love i felt for him and sent his way could just as easily be directed to the world around me. i realized i didn’t need to be loved in return like i thought i had. there was no reason to be upset that he didn’t want to be with me because life is so much bigger than my obsession with him and his rejection. my love is infinite and i don’t need someone outside of myself to express it. it was pretty awesome, my entire outlook has changed completely and pretty quickly. it was so awesome that i feel the need to share it on this strange thread which named a date that had such a huge effect on me.