God has given you another chance to relive or change one moment in your life. Which moment do you choose?
I’d probably relive the moment I fell into paranoia (this time choosing NOT to do it) or I’d relive whenever it was that I lost confidence in myself (I’d also choose not to do it). I know confidence is the natural state before you are introduced to the ideas and standards of the world, but it’s been so long since I’ve had it that I don’t remember what it was like to be that sure of myself anymore.
Umm the moment it occurred to me that I was inevitably going to drink heavily when I turned 21. Or the moment I smoked my first cigarette because I was lonely and afraid and I thought it would make me feel, ‘cool’. Which it did because I gave it that power.
@ojai lmao an awesome choice. That reminds me of an excerpt from GEB that all of you will find interesting if you haven’t already read it:
Personally, I wouldn’t take it. My life is nothing special. Like too many others I suffer from depression, and constant headaches. I was also recently diagnosed with Psychosis. None of which I’m proud to admit. Yet to this day I regret no decision that I have ever made, even though I know exactly which decisions got me my diagnosis’.
I know what I know now because of these things. I feel like I have a deep understanding of the universe and what I consider “god” because of life experiences including, but not limited to the drugs I’ve taken, and the people they’ve lead me to meet.
I joined the US military 3 years ago and although I’ve hated many more days than I enjoyed, I learned so much about myself and how human beings operate. I wouldn’t be anything even remotely similar to what I am today, which is something I can truly call my own. Something which I’ve knowingly created, and which I have the power to change on a whim.
If you can’t get over a regret, then be a teacher. Help those around you understand why you think they shouldn’t do some of the things that you have done. Use your knowledge for good, because letting it bring you down is only destroying yourself. Don’t die with regret, live with experience.
@chadbeland, I can feel your depression through your post! :(
Don’t feed this feeling anymore! Watch the world… It’s beautiful! And you are here to enjoy it! Ignore all bad experiences… they are all past! Past doesn’t matter anymore… what matters is today! Look at this amazing planet that you are standing: Look at the sky, it’s so immense and it changes color along the day and in the night it shines billions of stars… It’s so beautiful! Look at the trees… the flowers… our fellow creatures… the way nature changes through the year… and you are a part of this! You can also change… you can learn to see all the beauty and enjoy your existence! It’s all your choice!
I should wait 10 years and at least experience things I would regret my entire lifetime! Right now there’s nothing to regret.
7 years ago now, at my last kindergarten class’s graduation ceremony….I taught them the fifty states song (idk if you know that one, but part of it includes all 50 states in alphabetical order). Anyways, together we came up with this awesome choreographed dance.. and we also had this big inflatable globe (like a big beach ball) that was the center of it. The kids would hand or throw the ball to different kids during the song, and it was all part of the dance and kind of guided them to where they had to go next. We practiced every day and had that dance down pat. Come the day of the graduation, when it came time to do the song, we realized that we left the ball all the way back at the classroom. The ceremony was running smoothly, and I didn’t want to hold things up, and make people wait, while my stupid ass went all the way back to get the ball that I should’ve remembered. So, I gave the kids a quick pep talk–that they didn’t need the ball to do the dance, that they could just picture the ball in their hands when it was supposed to be, etc.. and we went along with the dance anyways. They had a couple minor mess-ups, it totally didn’t run as smoothly, but all & all they did really good. But I always felt like I jipped them on something that they worked really hard for… it comes to mind from time to time still. That’s really my only regret. I wish I just told everyone to hold the fuck on for 5 minutes and I wish I went & got the stupid ball :) That’s it.