after our last meeting I wrote this about it…. would love to hear what you all think :)
December 25th, 2013
Just as fast as our long separation had ended, I knew too that this moment would end just as fast. I’d fall asleep in this bed alone later tonight still embracing the warmth of her beauty that would state behind, lingering under the covers where we now lie.
cool winter breeze
pink winter sky
Staining our eyes
I had always questioned her love, for I knew I always loved her and even almost admitted it to her on a few occasions. As of lately though, perhaps as a result of the long periods of solitude that seemed to increase in length each time we parted, it was as if I convinced myself that I had nothing to offer such beauty. Yet I felt she perceived me exactly as I thought my self to be, and I felt I saw her in the same light. Perhaps that’s what love is?… or maybe just the remnants of deep suffering that tends to be the result when one makes such pretenses of themselves and of another!
But what a horribly jaded perspective to even entertain! Oh with Becca here beside me life is all so simple! Aren’t we so young!… or is the way her presence brings about a feeling of such childhood innocence and playfulness just a reminder of how old I’ve really become?!
“Kiss her you fool! You said it
yourself how quickly all fades,
so what’s the point of oppressing
such love for later days?…
…for love never stays the same anyways!”
Breaking the long, peaceful and beautiful silence was a joyous giggle from her on my chest. “What’s so funny?” I asked.
“Well I was just thinking…. Is pure bliss simply nothing?”
After a short pause to think to think she then declared with a smile,
“ Nothing is pure bliss!”
and I should have kissed her right then and there! For it’s her inevitable departure that makes such moments so beautiful! Knowing that they’ll end, like all else does, and that the high from such ecstasy could never last forever because really all love is is just a reflection of your own, which will also inevitably end.
So let us think nothing! And let us act with the instincts of children! Let us not ever ponder such impermanence for really it, love and beauty are all one in the same! And really Becca, myself and the entire universe can’t exist separately from one another and my love is her love is my love is all of our love!