I’m coming down from my first ever shroom trip and I figured now’s as good a time as any to write this! I’m 21, a waitress at a shitty restaurant and when I’m not there I’m usually smoking weed and reading/playing video games/on reddit. I’m not a terribly social person, so after work I go into hermit mode. I’m sick of this stupid shallow cycle my life has turned into. I’m really hoping that a combination of this site and my sudden access to psychedelics will help me get out of this.
I’ve been meaning to start meditating for a few weeks now but I guess I’m too intimidated by the concept of it so I just keep putting it off. This day has changed me. I hope. We’ll see. I went into the situation hoping to determine whether or not I believe in a soul/spirit/what have you. I’ve been teetering on the edge of absolute atheism for months now but I want to believe in something a little more… cheerful? Everything was so happy and meaningful today.
Sorry for the long rant guys, I’m feeling quite inspired!
Don’t grasp onto atheism for grasping onto it defeats the purpose. Try to stay neutral and obtain as much information as possible, never believe anything. Always stay neutral but lean towards where you want. Things change, information changes, people should too. If you have a belief system, you won’t.
I’m an “atheist”, even though I don’t hold onto that anymore, and from my experiences in life I have come to the realization that this life is just a stage. Also, I have taken a liking to physics, which is some cool stuff.
Atheism/no beliefs can be scary at first, but its so much more magnificent knowing that what you love is life itself, not something made up.
Oh and welcome!
Welcome, Marceline. As it seems you’ve found a great place. :)
marceline . i feel for you. the life seems so shallow. go to work , come home, no one inspiring to talk to. gloom and more gloom. no meaning.
here at HE you can find some ideas to think about, your life will change if you let it. its good you took the shrooms but now you have to let yourself slowly open for the changes.
be strong and open your heart and eyes. it is all unfolding within you, and with out you
you are stardust!!
@Mike- Thanks! :)
@Eric- That’s a really good point… I was raised with the message “It doesn’t matter what you believe as long as you believe in something”, which has never really made that much sense to me. I do feel that my friends with set-in-stone beliefs are way less open minded.
@Sasho- It really looks like I have :)
@Andy- I’m saving up for a trip to Seattle this summer, hopefully I can leave the country sometime soon too.
@Stonedragon- I just wish I knew where to begin. This site is such a huge resource, between all the blog articles and different sites people have been linking to in discussions I feel a little overwhelmed! I love the phrase “you are stardust”, I think it or a variation of it would be tattoo worthy
@Marceline – welcome, that’s not a long rant by any means, thanks for sharing your inspiration.
take your time getting into this site, DO EPIC SHIT every day! you’ll start inspiring yourself, you won’t need a website or shrooms or whatever to get the feeling you’ve got right now.