When I’m introspective and in a meditative “this is not real” kind of mode, I can handle anything that the day throws me. But there are occasions (such as yesterday when I was pulled over at the border) that I let situations get the best of me.
Although I didn’t verbalize my aggravation (I was only slightly rude) I let it build up inside of me like a volcano waiting to erupt. I remained in a highly aggravated for the rest of the evening which is what bothers me the most.
Why can’t I ALWAYS apply the self control and mind control that I usually do?
Basically I hate it when I let things get to me. I think it shows weakness
I believe this just makes you normal. You’re not a movie heroine after all. The question is, why do you need to be perfect or feel perfect all the time? Sounds tiring.
Nah you don’t have to get upset.. Why even bother feeling like that? If you don’t like it then SLOWLY get better at better at catching yourself. I look at life like, “what goes around comes around” so if that happened to you chances are you may have deserved that experience one way or the other. If you get angry your just putting yourself back in the loop but if you forgive the entire experience and yourself for getting into it.. Then no one gets hurt (the cancer stops dead in its tracks.. No longer are you a vehicle for anger,sorrow,greed,guilt..etc. but if your extremely nice well then someone will have to be like that towards you. It works great for me., and I used to be a pretty negative person about life.
You have to experience the whole of the realm of emotions. Partake in all that life has to offer, and most importantly, BE YOU. You got angry. Anger is a real emotion, it is a part of you, and so to neglect it, is to forsake it, and therefor, forsake a part of yourself. To discount a reaction, that inevitably just shows you another side of yourself for you to work on. Apathy is disconnection, while Empathy is connection.
We are not hurt when in that meditative state, because we are not easily distracted from the calm and peace that arises within us, as it is so powerful. If you wish to seek freedom from suffering, that is one thing. If you wish to seek out life, and to live it to the fullest, that is another thing of it’s own accord.
Just always do you, which you always are, and can never stop doing. So, relax. (: