How to re-ignite my journey. Please help.

HigherPrimate563 (@HigherPrimate563) 8 years, 3 months ago

When I was 22, I smoked Salvia. Most people view this experience as far from enlightening but for me it blew open the doors of my consciousness. I began to question everything. I questioned death. I questioned Christianity (which was bad for christianity in terms of keeping a follower). I began to look at the world different. I saw reality as relative. Life got much better. I began to realize who I was as an individual living in this crazy world. I had beautiful opinions on issues no one I knew was thinking about.

I then dipped into Mushrooms and it helped my journey even more. I was enjoying this new mode of living and questioning and developing opinions.

But now, I’ll smoke some weed and not think about things the way I used to. I don’t question stuff as much. I still see things clearer and more realistically than I would otherwise but I don’t have the carryover to when I’m not high in my day to day life.

I just need help. The excitement I had, learning about myself and seeing the world in a new light and having these deep opinions on things is essentially gone. And I desperately want it back.

One thing I think that happened, was I began to really look at our society and our government, so on and so forth, and became very cynical and distressed. I still come up with witty, funny things to discuss but they have these negative, dark connotations connected to them and I don’t like that.

My mind’s journey has been much like the world we live in in terms of capitalism. In the beginning, there was nothing. Then, came the boom and it was bright and beautiful. It was shiny and ecstatic. And then, somewhere along the line, it got dark and gloomy and political. But unlike capitalism, I’d like to turn this around and go back to the hay day! I stumbledupon this site and signed up immediately. I hope you guys can help me. If anyone can, it’s you all! My consciousness is a train that jumped from one station to the next, but now it’s stuck here. I want the next level, and the level after that. I’m so happy I found this site.

DISCLAIMER** Sorry for the rant. It’s 2am, I’m exhausted and I just had to make sure to say something on here. Glad to have found ya’ll.

Primate

October 18, 2013 at 12:39 am

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Anonymous (2,654) (@) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@reinvented2012, Okay, let’s forget your bad vibes for a second to just ask if you’re really serious about this, because I am.

How is weed going to help me?

How can I place my trust in taking shrooms from someone I don’t know, even though I’ve already read about it from the creator of this site that I should be picky with whom I take them.

How am I going to change for the better by being high when I’m already high and the reason I don’t even smoke weed, is because my organism is too fucking sensitive to take it, I don’t feel high when I smoke, I go out of my conscious space.

I love this site, because I am always curious about it and want to learn why am I so sensitive to a substance that helps people? It makes them numb enough to get through the day? How can you live with yourself if you want to feel like that?

Yep, I am a stupid motherfucker not needing any of your escapism.

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YHVH (462) (@spaceghost) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

It’s funny you two are so sure of @filipek and his intentions. By funny I mean pathetic.

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Anonymous (2,654) (@) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@spaceghost, It’s okay. We’re sure about you too.

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ZenCowboy (179) (@zencowboy) 8 years, 3 months ago ago
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YHVH (462) (@spaceghost) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@beyond please share.

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Anonymous (2,654) (@) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@spaceghost, Only if you had the skill to ask a question properly.

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YHVH (462) (@spaceghost) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@beyond excellent avoidance tactics.

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Anonymous (2,654) (@) 8 years, 3 months ago ago

@spaceghost, It seems yours suck.

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