About two years ago i picked my own mushrooms with a freind and i guess i had too many stems or something because my shroomy perception never went away, i started on a spiritual awakening and researched anything i thought may have helped, i started reading about the third eye after about 6 months and from there my understanding just grew, for awhile i thought i was an alien and then a fallen angel or a reincarnation of countless important people throughout history, but the other day i read a page on HPPD or hallicinogen persistent perception disorder and it was the last peice of my puzzle. Finally a term that brings my condition down to earth, I found throughout various means that stimulants bring me down a little and allow me to focus at work etc, alcohol and weed help me sleep but i feel shitty the next day, but any kind of natural psychedelic zeros me out and makes me feel connected and normal again, currently i have quit all drugs except the occaisional joint, even coffee as it tweaks me out to much to be content. And i eat 2 or 3 morning glory seeds a day to sustain my general well being.
Now the discussion, is it feasable that a permanent mushroom trip is a permanent spiritual awakening and i should jus keep blazing and eating my seeds and wait until i fuse with god or should i try and get treatment for hppd, my suspicion is they will try and give me fluoxetine or ritalin or something simalar and i know how these pharms will simply recalcify my pineal gland. Is there any sort of scrip that stimulates and heals the pineal gland? or does that go against all the medical establishment stands for? I dont want to close my third eye i just want to maintain without wasting cash on weed etc, and see what options i have as a human with a permanent trip
@tothemax92, Have you ever got in to meditation man? You can achieve the same zen state of mind you are talking about, it just takes more time and effort with meditation. You have to work for it which can teach you some valuable lessons in doing so and once you have reached that state of mind you wont have worry about taking a substance to maintain the state of mind you talk about. Rather then going on a quick fix roller coaster ride that mushrooms can be eventually that ride has to end or rather burnout.
Saying all this i just took a large dose of liberty caps (first time in 6 months) Will let you know how it goes. Peace
@tatler, yeah im in to meditation alright, i slip in to a lucid dream almost everynight and wake repeatedly because im not often in an actual deep sleep. unless i blaze or have a couple drinks and pass out. But weed lowers my perception thus making it hard for me to reach a meditative state when ive blazed in the last day or so. But i can feel myself trying to fall into a meditative state while out working etc so ill see how things go with the 5HTP
Im interested to see if tripping after reading this thread throws you anything useful for me
Cheers dude apreciate the simple practicality of your reply
i think you are just overreacting to the awareness expansion, perception = knowledge + experience, tripping puts your mind in experience overdrive because it changes how you perceive everything, just because you are no longer tripping does not mean you brain is no longer aware of the way you expanded it,
hppd sounds horrifying and much more of an extreme than how your tone conveys your current experience,
Cousin! Lmao I’ve quit weed and ciggarrettes recently. And I’m starting to feel alot better!, I haven’t done any psychedelics in a while but would love to. Meditate man it’s the most realistic natural way to feel zen! Meditate on your breath, your inner body energy ect.. Your body heals itself in these deeper states of consciousness, your body knows more than your mind. Anyways that’s what I’m going through I find thinking about my pineal gland and all that is just rather stressful and causes anxiety. Life’s gonna play out just the way it’s meant to, taker easy max.
@tothemax92, ” i just want to lead a more natural life, ciggarettes tylenol, prozac, processed food, all is one to me.
Answer me this then forget my claims, what do you personally find helps, and what doesnt? thats all i wanted to hear i wasnt looking for i fight against my beleifs”
Leading a more natural life is probably good, but just remember there are toxins in nature too. Lead, arsenic, and cyanides are all natural…
What helped me with with HPPD was forgetting about it. I dealt with it for a long time and I came to terms that HPPD is just anxiety / fear. My vision and my thoughts would get very sporadic and really ‘out there’ when I had fear or anxiety. But when I wasn’t thinking about it at all, I was fine, I felt good, and still could search for truths.
I’m just trying to tell you to not make up problems that don’t really exist. I think with HPPD, people have a bad trip or a confusing trip and then they think they have been damaged, so they go looking for an explanation and they find HPPD. Now they believe that they DID do damage and they are going to have HPPD for life, making the original situation even worse.
You just need to figure out how to mentally remove anxiety and fear from your daily thoughts. Taking different drugs isn’t going to help as much as introspection and changing how one think’s about the world.