I really love life, I appreciate and I completely love it, but I feel I waste it- when it comes down to working.
Today I told my friends I could not go out with them and freerun on the rooftops, as I have to do work. I have done no work for 7 hours and instead have felt like poo. My logic is, is that because I am neither doing work (Because it overwhelms and scares me, and I am lazy in that aspect) I am opting out and not having to choose. However I know that I’m consciously WORST possible decision and I don’t understand why.
I’m not sure what it is I’m even working for, or if I want to be what I used to be- maybe that is why? But I am fed up of this lazy attitude, but even though I’m saying that- I hear the voice and barrier in my head making excuses and/ or stopping me from working.
Please somebody give me some advice?
i am struggling with the same issue. it think the best way to help is not give yourself an option. say “i must do this work now because it is important” (even though in the grand scheme of things it probably isn’t. don’t give yourself an option, and come up with small punishments for not doing what your supposed to do. didn’t do that essay? no TV that night, or week. didn’t fill out an important paper? turn off your phone for a day. its important once you decide something to go through with it. Also, make plans. things to look forward to. things to work for. they can be small or big. anything from a movie night with friends (or by yourself) to a road trip. its a relatively simple combination of giving yourself small mental prods, ultimatums, and things to look forward to. yes, i know, easier said then done but i hope this was somewhat helpful?
Take a week to find out what you love and what you are passionate about. Go free run with your friends and then grind out the work and stay up as long as it takes. The life you dream of is there, you just have to carve off the doubt, the guilt, and the self-restraint. Find what makes you happy. Do that.