I dont feel ALIVE…

 zara (@zarazara1980)8 years, 2 months ago

I’m 17 and yea ^. Everything I do seems like I have to be forced to do the same old thing again. Like when im bored I am like “well, im going to go read now. okay im turning the page now.” or “hmm, i want to ride my bike. okay im riding my bike. cool.” like im so bored of doing all of these things. I wish life would just throw in some cool events for me but its like the same old thing every day- its been like this for years. I just got back from a vacation and I had a good time in nature and meeting different people but now im back to my normal life with the same old friends that are fake to me and that i feel like i have to impress, same loneliness and boredom, trying to recover itself by doing random tasks.its like im not “experiencing” anything.

i never had a boyfriend and love is a feeling i crave but its not coming to me. i crave a true feeling. but not like the excitement i would get sky diving, thats what i would consider over-rated. i want a feeling of love,passion,contentness, etc. i kind of felt something on vacation as i was walking with a few new friends at midnight through a forest with stars above me and everyone talking and laughing. i felt alive. now im back home and i feel nothing- and so to replace the feeling i start to stress about little un important things like facebook,clothes, and fake friendships

July 28, 2013 at 7:55 pm
LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

So you know what makes you feel alive. Keep doing it.

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zowie (115) (@zowie) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

open your eyes to the world inside to view the things outside as new and your life will change. no two leaves are ever the same, as with the flow of water and all that kool jazzy stuff!

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zowie (115) (@zowie) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

open your eyes to the world inside to view the things outside as new and your life will change. no two leaves are ever the same, as with the flow of water and all that kool jazzy [email protected],

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Zach (5) (@zach840) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@zarazara1980 Do you feel detached from emotion? If so i have experienced that for a few months. For me, i waited it out and a combination of things helped me get out of it or reattached. One, i kind of adopted the bill hicks view, that “this is just a ride.” And then i met someone, 6 months later i am incredibly happy and feel alive. So you could just wait it out. Also you seem to know what makes you happy, so do it! You could delete your facebook, start shopping at goodwill (Occasionally they have great stuff), and only be with people that make you happy. Always remember, “Don’t worry, don’t be afraid, ever. Because this is just a ride, and you can change it at anytime.” Good Luck!

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Bryan (104) (@Substratum) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

My guess is that you are not challenged by life and have not yet learned how to challenge yourself.You sound to me to be relatively unconscious, half-asleep…in a bit of a fog…not unusual for a 17 yr old, especially one who has lived a relatively secure, pampered life…not intending any insult…quite seriously it seems you have not yet emerged from infancy and the mentality and expectations appropriate for an infant. You are waiting for life to “throw in something cool”…to feed you ? It’s not your fault since no one leaves the comfort of infancy willingly…most people need to be pushed, pulled or kicked out…or they find something they love in the real world and it becomes necessary to choose one or the other. I have no wish to offend you so, if I’m misinterpreting, forgive me and understand I was only trying to help. On the other hand, if it’s angering and upsetting to you…consider how an infant reacts when you take away their bottle or disturb their comfort…

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Paws4Peace (1) (@Paws4Peace) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

@zarazara1980, The very best advise I can give you is go Volunteer some where that you have interest in. For me it was Dog shelters. I have met amazing people who are not fake at all, as a matter of fact we all say the same thing. People who volunteer are searching for some the bigger, or fill a void in there life. I had no passion in my life for 33 years If it were not for Dogs I may have given up completely. You can read into that any way you want.
Now on the falling in love part It surly will happen, but if your to picky then you have to do some work on your self. I have been in your place for a very long time, and one day every thing changed in my life for the better. For me that was threw Dogs.

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Mary Quitecontrary (0) (@skittles) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

I agree with @substratum. I remember feeling like that too when I was around 17. In fact, most of my teen years were marked with depression which largely came about through being unchallenged. Shit just felt the same. Try setting goals for yourself. Travel if you can.

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x (75) (@ParalyticDreams) 8 years, 2 months ago ago

I’d recommend setting goals for yourself. And do everything you can to get out of your comfort zone. For example, I committed to taking cold showers everyday for 30 days… It was quite a challenging experience but nevertheless it was an experience and it actually changed me and made me realize a few things about myself. There are plenty of opportunities around you that can force you out of your normal everyday boredom, you just have to know where to look.

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