I feel like I'm stuck on the edge of awakening.

Dordan (@Dordan) 7 years, 6 months ago

Hey guys, I post this today because I am somewhat lost. I know I have made significant progress from a year ago when I suffered depression, but I don’t know where to go from here. The amount of ground I have covered is insane. But now I have a lot of passions and I can’t narrow it down to one that I really want to pursue. I’m starting college in a year and have no idea what I want to do. If this helps at all, I love learning about the world and how it works including everything in it(in my mind that confuses me even more). Another thing is I can’t bring myself to build good habits such as drawing, meditating, and working out(although I have been able to get myself reading a lot). I could go on an on about my indecisiveness but it basically comes down to the fact that I don’t know which direction my life is pointing towards and what doors I should be opening to get there. I would like to know your guys’ opinions on how I should go about choosing and finding my path. And I know I’m not the only one that’s been here, so if you’ve been here, please please please tell me all you know. On a side note, I am very interested in starting a small group of people that have serious intentions of living a kick-ass life and changing this world. I know zero people so far that are like me and all I want is to find other HEthens. I feel like this place has a lot of special people that have the same mindset as me and the ability to change things and do great things. So feel free to message me or something. Now. DISCUSS!

February 5, 2015 at 5:29 pm
sidthekid (12) (@shakhtar) 7 years, 6 months ago ago

I have been lost before, found myself, and have been lost again. Lifes a journey and I can relate myself to you because I am a college student, and was lost during my freshman year as to what I need to do with my life. Those answers come along as life goes, and you find them through your experiences. I have been constantly in a search for answer with a similar question that you’ve been having. The truth is, the answer will come along at the right time, don’t go blind in a constant search for it, because life will still pass by so learn to cherish the present instead of looking for answers. As far as your major in college goes, choose a major that you enjoy. Don’t chase the money aspect of it because eventually you may change your major and mold your career as life goes on. I have been there, and plenty of people i know have as well. So don’t stress, go to the gym more often, stay healthy and fit, be positive, and live your life. Don’t wait for the right answers to come, they will come at the right moment.

Dordan (5) (@Dordan) 7 years, 6 months ago ago

I understand exactly what you mean, maybe it’s part of my long line of trust issues from my old nature. I get slightly worried when I think about it and don’t trust that it will just work out. So I think that’s where my problem lies, not that things might not work out, but that I just don’t trust that they will. Thanks for the realization man, opened my eyes a bit more.

LVX (297) (@Vovinawol) 7 years, 6 months ago ago

As “No Good Deed Goes Unpunished”, remember that one person who discovers their true divinity does more good for the world and the universe than a whole army of people with a sightless dream. And with any group, for any purpose, it will always lead to corruption and open a door for malevolence to enter. This is the main reason I choose to leave the 3 mystery schools that I used to belong to when I was younger. It’s kind of like the student of a martial arts school who one day must leave the dojo and disappear into the mountains (alone) to become a true master I suppose.

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