I feel like I'm the person I'm supposed to be when I'm high on Marijuana

Link (@pirateboots) 7 years, 7 months ago

Forgive me if this has already been brought up in the past or isn’t in the right category. I feel like I need to put this out there while I still can. I rarely smoke/ingest weed but when I do, at first the high is too much. I overthink and get paranoid. Then after the come down I have this after glow for a few days. My thought process is clear, I can actually distinguish what emotion I’m feeling, I have energy, confidence, positivity, an interest in hobbies I used to enjoy, and can carry on conversations with people and feel connected. When I’m not high, I just feel… nothing. It’s like my mind is hybernating. I feel out of place and like I’m operating on an entirely different frequency than everyone else, yet I’m too apathetic to do anything about it. I don’t know if I’m depressed- I don’t feel depressed… but it’s a terrible way to live when I think about it now. I had an edible yesterday and it has brought me out of that funk for a time. I’m scared because I know that funk will come back. I’ve read so much literature about meditation, exercise, eating right, etc. in hopes that some magical words with bring me enlightenment and I can just snap out of it. It hasn’t worked. Only Marijuana. What does THC do to the brain? I’m starting to believe that maybe I have some chemical imbalance that should be addressed by a professional. Anyone else have this experience? Any suggestions? Thank you for taking the time to read this. I value everyone’s opinion

October 7, 2014 at 3:22 am
PsychKnight (1) (@Frostyy) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

THC is incredibly useful for any kind of health issue. ANY
CBD’s and BHO’s are extracts from cannabis as well.

Do a little research my friend, the internet goes a long way, but I was just in Maine and this was all explained to me while candyflipped for a few days, so … i kinda

ANYWAY pot is extremely healthy, especially kush( great for headaches)

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Link (0) (@pirateboots) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

I trust the people on here more than the wide open interweb.

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FOREVER (0) (@peyotecayote) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Well this is interesting, I used to experience the exact same thing. Like I’m just some ghost in this machine. After getting totally baked, I’d feel more… connected. THC is a powerful psychoactive compound and fires up certain neural pathways which in most people lie dormant for most their lives which leads to the ‘high’, or higher states of consciousness. While sparking up or nibbling a spacecake can be very helpful in our evolution, they are only the means to end and there are way more effective means. I don’t think you have any chemical imbalance, and going to a ‘professional’ will most likely only get you put on some harmful prescription medication that will only aggravate the feeling of being disconnected. Been there done that. After years of aimlessly groping around in the dark I discovered Transcendental Meditation, an incredible technique of experiencing the self, and it’s changed my life in every way. Definitely worth reading up about. Hope this helps.

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Link (0) (@pirateboots) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Thanks for reaffirming that I’m not alone in feeling this way. I haven’t heard of Transcendental Meditation before and it seems like it’s hard to find information about it online. Do you have any reading recommendations?

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Anonymous (0) (@) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

“The attention revolution” i can recommend. It covers mindful and transcendental meditation, iirc. Simple explanations, each chapter introduces a higher state of mind

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Eddie V. (0) (@eduardv) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Your story is so relatable. I was very apathetic and likely depressed. Only when I smoked some good bud I was able to function as a normal human being. When high, I was the person I wanted to be: productive, social, happy. But when the high wore off my depression was back.
Being dependent on drugs as a mean to feel normal can end up very badly and downward spiral was inevitable.
Some time after my worst periods of depression I discovered meditation. That changed everything. After my first session (while high ofc) I was blown away. It was simply amazing. I did not look back and my mindset and life in general has improved leaps and bounds.

My theory is simple. My depression made impossible for me to enjoy doing anything. I could not focus on a single activity because i always felt that I should be doing something else. My mind was racing all the time scheming and planning and worrying and regretting etc. After a while it got so bad that I didn’t give a shit about anything. I just stayed in bed. Depression consumed YEARS off my life. Horrible way to live. Cannabis gave me the ability to be in the moment. I enjoyed what I was doing and I was focused and felt relaxed. Meditation also gives me that clarity and focus.

You mentioned reading about living a healthy lifestyle. How about hands on experience? Don’t wait for enlightenment through written words. Go for a light run. After that make a healthy meal and then meditate. Try that pattern for some time. Maybe a month? Hell, start with a week.
I wish you the best

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Link (0) (@pirateboots) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

This sums up my life at the moment. Maybe this apathy is just another type of depression… Is there a type of meditation that you practice? I would give it a try. I’m seeing a reiki master tomorrow which I’m pretty excited for. It serves as my first step into the world of alternative healing.

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Eddie V. (0) (@eduardv) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Apathy is one of the main symptoms of depression.
I don’t practice any specific meditation. I just kinda ‘got it’ on my first try and I just let my mind go where it wants. Sometimes I achieve transcendental state, sometimes I just enjoy mindfulness. Meditation is a simple technique. UCLA has some awesome guided meditations on its site. Try some of those.

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YHVH (462) (@spaceghost) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

I actually feel the opposite. It makes me a mess kinda.

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Link (0) (@pirateboots) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

I think it can depend on what state of mind you’re in prior to smoking/ingesting, too.

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ThePonce (0) (@stonedponce) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

I personally think our mind and eyes are more open and perceptive when were high and it makes us see how life truly is

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Anonymous (0) (@) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

What happens when your stash runs out?

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josephm (772) (@josephm) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

then you cop drugs at the coffee store, or buy cigarettes. maybe booze.steal them.manipulation. or steal belongings from your family/friends. or just make your own money.

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josephm (772) (@josephm) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

good intentions/science/evolution

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josephm (772) (@josephm) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

for an episode to occur – the trigger is pulled. find and investigate the trigger.

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Josh (213) (@reinvented2012) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

I think that it is just normal and smoking weed is perfectly fine, especially if it helps you. You have found your cure for normalcy, dont ruin it by going to see a doctor.

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Zykanthos (4,757)M (@chodebalm) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Definitely been there before, my friend. In my opinion, THC brings out your spiritual nature. It brings out who you really are and breaks down the cultural barriers and walls that were put in front of you. That’s the best way I can describe it.

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FOREVER (0) (@peyotecayote) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

The Transcendental Meditation technique saved my life. The feeling of transcending is more powerful than any high I’ve ever experienced from any drug, clearer and intensely profound. If you’re interested – http://www.tm.org/meditation-techniques

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