I feel numb, but just aware enough to know that my heart is in danger of turning into ice at this time in my life. I don’t want to freeze my emotions but I feel like I have no choice, help
Are you a man or a woman?
I try to embrace the juiciness of my emotions as a feminine quality. Not that I don’t think men should be in touch with their emotions but when I feel afraid of my own icy or burning intensity I remember it’s a beautiful and powerful part being a woman. Also I love the quote ” if you require healing, let yourself fall ill”
Emotion is fluid and cleansing.If you are very vulnerable, maybe try the yoga postures balasana and supta baddha konasana.
But it’s okay to freeze sometimes until you’re ready, or just pull a little of it to the surface at a time, if that makes sense.
This is going to be a long shot.
Always be drunk.
The great imperative!
In order not to feel
Time’s horrid fardel
bruise your shoulders,
grinding you into the earth,
Get drunk and stay that way.
On wine, poetry, virtue, whatever.
But get drunk.
And if you sometimes happen to wake up
on the porches of a palace,
in the green grass of a ditch,
in the dismal loneliness of your own room,
your drunkenness gone or disappearing,
ask the wind,
ask everything that flees,
everything that groans
everything that speaks,
ask what time it is;
and the wind,
will answer you:
“Time to get drunk!
Don’t be martyred slaves of Time,
On wine, virtue, poetry, whatever!”
Numb is a sign of conflict, of cognitive dissonance. You are believing two things at the same time that cannot live together in your head. Find out what these are and you have to choose one over the other. The pain of letting one thing go may be great, but learning and accepting propels you forward.