I am afraid I may be going down a wrong path:
I remember when I was 19 I was in complete awe about life. I was energized and getting into so many new activities. Spiritually, I remember I would experience chi frequently, and sometimes think I heard God’s voice. I was stoked everyday.
Though not much older at 21, I feel less awe about life. I am motivated and achieving goals, but life just doesn’t feel as mysterious as it did before. I haven’t had any noticeable spiritual experiences, and new activities don’t excite me as much. I don’t want to lose that feeling I had before, as it was one of the most memorable and REAL times of my life.
I understand there are many variables at hand here, but I just want to hear what some of you would have to say. Either comment on why you think this may be happening (possibly just maturing?), or talk about guaranteed ways that make you stoked and just blown away by the mystery of life. Please HEthens, help me achieve a higher existence!
I went through the same thing! I was 19 and having a grand old time I guess but then I went through some things that changed my life forever. Nothing serious, just a few heartaches from boy and “friends” and I noticed that I had become a very ‘cold’ person. Also couldnt truly enjoy things and I didnt know why. This was not like me at all. I had focused on work, work and work. Which sounds like it would be a good thing, right? Wrong. I had become so wrapped up in the idea of making money that i forgot to appreciate my life and and the people I had in it.
One night last year in November, I made a poor decision to drink and drive while I was 20 years old. I saw the lights and just thought “Damnit”. I didnt panic, I didnt lie, and i did not cry. This being because I had enough things in my car to get me sent to jail that the cop disregarded and only had given me the DUI. I knew that what I had done was wrong, stupid, and not-so-good for my future, But I also knew that there was a possibility that I wouldnt have made it home in one piece, or at all!
That was the turning point of my outlook on life.
Things could have went so much differently than they did. But I still truly believe It was all supposed to bring me to the mental state I am in now, which i would not trade for anything. It made me turn to something I had learned about in high school called ‘The Secret’. This short movie is all about the Laws of Attraction, which is a very real thing. I also had my fair share of conversations with very spiritual people, who helped me to realize that there is more to life. There is something after, and there was something before. I did my research on Buddhism, on afterlife, on the paranormal, ive spoke to many people on their experiences with mediums, and after all of the things I learned, I knew that it was time to change my perspective, so I did.
I got myself a ‘Daily Teachings’ calender from The Secret line, as well as the Book and the dvd. The daily teaching are beautiful and help me to remember the small things that can change any day around at anytime. Ive kept myself as positive as Ive ever been and Ive never been so happy and content in my life, yet with so little. I currently so not have a license, my car blew up and i live in the middle of nowhere. Easily I could complaint and bitch about these things, since it effects me daily. Instead I choose to appreciate the fact that my parents and a few awesome friends are nice enough to help me out in my time of need. Something as simple as that can completely change your whole day and eventually your life. I guess what Im trying to say is, Be CURIOUS. Ask questions, look for answers, know and appreciate what you have and live my The Golden Rule. Do unto others, as you would want done to you; I promise you wont regret it !
@mcr513, maybe this happened because you became too focused on achievement and not enough on your spirituality and personal growth. Our world has a way of keeping us preoccupied with external things and what we can sense with our 5 senses, rather than our inner worlds as well everything there is beyond this world. Something that invokes awe in me is the night sky. Everything in this world seems so miniscule when you stop to think about all the other planets and stars in the universe. And I fully believe we incarnate as different people in different times and planets, but there is no time, everything is happening right now, so I try to connect with my other selves and listen to them, see what purpose this particular life has for my soul growth. And I think about who I really am beyond the experiences I’ve had in this life. Hopefully this helps some=/
@nikkihaze, @yerhiighness, Both of you helped piece together the idea that I am most likely not focusing enough on my spiritual side. It seems so obvious, but perhaps I was thinking I was just losing interest. I’ll try to put more energy into this aspect of life and see how it goes.
@yerhiighness, Thank you for sharing your story and The Secret. It seems like a helpful source, so I subscribed to the frequent emails.
@nikkihaze, You have helped! And I totally agree, beautiful night skies are incredible. They stir something within me as well.