I need help maneuvering the rat race

 lastunicorn (@lastunicorn)5 years, 3 months ago

Hi everyone, I’m afraid of joining “the rat race”. I am a beautiful person, and I want to stay that way. I can sense my eyes shining with passion when I talk about what I’m interested in, and I am not swimming in debt or materialistic greed so my soul is free to wonder about the universe. I can sense that my innocence and naivete is rare. Healing I approach with an open mind. I just graduated from university last year and my parents think I’m lost in life. They want me to “get a real job”. I am living at home because I quit a short, stressful term teaching English in South Korea, barely got away from my suicidal thoughts there, and finally broke up a long stressful relationship shortly afterward. Now I am home again, confused, lonely, unsure. I am afraid of going for graduate school in neuroscience or psychology, or becoming a psychiatrist. I am afraid that in graduate school in neuroscience or psychology, I will lose the openness and freedom of my soul to the politics of climbing the academic hierarchy (I’ve heard that it can get quite pretentious–and my experience of higher university education is a bunch of people saying dry fancy words around a table). I am afraid that as a psychiatrist with 200k of medical school debt and 4 years of medical school, I will be pressured via my career and schooling/brainwashing to label people with disorders and give them a bunch of drugs that I don’t think will help them with spiritual growth and will only give me and pharmaceutical companies more money. Does anyone have advice besides “follow your dreams”? I feel like my soul is flickering.

March 1, 2016 at 12:14 am
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