I have entered this so called state of oneness four times. All of a sudden i understand the world and feel compassionate toward it. I can solve problems with ease. I learn and understand like a genius. Words just flow out of my mouth when i speak. Most importantly i am at one with myself and accept myself and the world around me therefore I feel like the most ecstatic person in the universe. But then when i am around other people i begin to notice how unlike them I am. I notice that i am becoming a leader and how i dominate conversations but for some reason i’d rather be the old me and just shy away from who i really am. So i begin to starting fearing this new me. I start judging people and from there i slowly begin to disconnect from my true original and individual self back and I begin to turn back into my conforming and isolated old self. The comedown from the true self to the old self is pretty crazy. The ego begins to creep up and offer sympathy in the form of pleasure. It starts to take form and manifest in negative emotions. Eventually it takes me over to the point of no return. I get depressed and so the cycle continues. I become extreme darkness and continue looking for the light until i become the light only to reject it once again. This is quite the vicious cycle and I am at a point where i know that i can’t do it all by myself therefore i wanna ask all of you open minded individuals to help me by sharing your own individual experiences on the path to the true self.
@imjustdifferent, the ego has a very manipulative form it which it gives you the fears you are feeling and offers you the comfort. It is disheartening when we realise that those around us haven’t tuned into there true energies but that is their path and you cannot walk it for them. All you can do is positively interact with people in a way that is true to yourself and those vibrations will resonate with the essence under the mask. Your fear and anxiety is a form of heightened awareness learn to accept it and it’ll pass through. If you fight it or block it that’s where your ego will come through. Embrace the sight you have been given and positively ripple to those who’s energies will feel it even if they don’t see life through your opened eyes! :) I have written about my experience on this forum if you want to take a look!
Thread: An experience in Ego Death.
@secretagentpeter, by the narrow left brain i mean the structure itself and the building blocks of the matrix that the majority is in. Because of the narrow field of view of the matrix of the left brain you are trapped in a box. You begin to believe that you are the box and therefore it is by nature a matrix. What a narrow mind does is create a time based “self”. In this way you create the past and the future which essentially do not exist. A narrow mind creates all sorts of illusions and lies like fear anxiety and depression. When in actuality all the of these symptoms are only messengers to the higher self screaming at you to awaken from the narrow mind matrix!