These past couple of days I have been really inside my own mind.
I don’t know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, because while is consists of extreme highs, it also consists of extreme lows.
I decided to try and log how I was feeling, and this poem (if you can call it that) was the outcome.
Let me know what you think..
I don’t know what punctuates these constant ups and downs
The valleys between the mountains topped with pure ecstasy
I don’t know what dictates a mindset
And even though I pretend
I don’t know exactly what it is that dictates a state of mind
Why do we feel the way we do?
Why do we do the things we do?
Why did we make the choices we have made?
And why do our minds consist of the thoughts they possess?
See, sometimes I know I have never been so sure of how the universe works
It’s like I can see the wheels of the cosmos turning, fitting, and forming
I see how everything is one
I see the reason
And I know the rhyme
And I feel how far I have come on my journey
But other times, it feels like the closer I get,
The farther away I really am
It’s as if I have been dropped into the ocean
Land no where in sight
The ocean is a vast body of thoughts
And I am surrounded
And I am submerged
Trapped within my own mind
Drowning within myself
I’m reaching for the light at the surface
The light is self-realization
The light is power, knowledge, wisdom, and peace
The light is where I must get
And as I am reaching
As I am grasping
Face tilted forever upward
Feet a whirlwind of motion
My mind pleading
Searching for the strength and energy to reach the surface before I run out of air
I can’t move
The worst thing of all
Is that I have tasted that bliss
I have seen that light
I have felt the euphoria that accompanies the warmth of the truth
I know what it’s like to truly know
And I am able to grasp the idea of togetherness
Why I can’t stay in that place I will never know
But it makes the water that much colder
That much heavier
The pressure that much more unbearable
I will get there someday
I will remain present
I will remain positive
I will exist solely in the present
And above all…
I will listen
@jettablaine, Aaaah great poem, words, amazing resonance…
I understand so much how you feel !
I don’t think it’s neither good nor bad, it just is, that’s just the way it is.
Infinity is trapped in what’s finite, but is it really, since it is infinite anyway, and the finite in which lies infinity is itself in an infinity, which is in… Well, you got it, loops. Oops, if you get it’s no longer a loop.
It’s hard to not to say impossible to handle infinity with our physical being, and yet we can feel it, be aware of its infinite truth, as long as we don’t put words on it which would then make it finite… But wait, is it a problem ?
Even the realization of these constant and perfect waves, this perfect balance and harmony between the yin and the yang, becomes somehow one of the highs that implies lows, when you realize that you realized it, when you realize that you just ARE, actually. Words are misinterpretations, trying to learn is the best way to not learn anything.
In order to awake the Buddha within, just be.
Be nowhere, everywhere and yet in every precise point that can be.
Be the never-ending motion yet what is motionless.
The infinite in everything single finite, perfect harmony, true balance.
Pure awareness, blissful awareness.
And remember that Love is the key ! It’s not about good or bad though, just Love.
@jettablaine, I think truth is an experience, and not a concept. Being able to explain it is not required in order to know you are feeling it. The drive to explain leads us to connect to our purer selves, which can then produce things like this poem which gives everyone else confidence in their inner feeling of truth too.
@jettablaine, Great poem, good work.
These past few months I have been regularly meditating. I started after a friend recommended it after I mentioned my tiredness from constant mental chatter. It worked a treat. However, along the way it has shown me how much we don’t/cannot know. I am even starting to question my life-long atheistic world view and dipping my feet into the spiritual ocean. I now understand our lack of free will (whole new topic), and seeing clearly that the mindset is a collaboration of everything external from the self.
It’s an exciting new path filled with renewed wonder, which I now find myself on. I hear a lot of testimonies regarding psychedelics nudging people down the spiritual path, and I understand that, but I have reached this through nothing more than meditation and precariously drifting beyond the conscious world of thought. That may not be even possible, but it sometimes seems that way, and that is the whole point. Mindfulness is the key.
Anyway, I’m babbling now. Awesome post. Take care. :)
Nice. As has been said on this site many times, life is a ride. The ups, downs, bends and swirls highlight the existence of each other. You can fear them, love them or simply accept them. Either way, they’ll still exist. Even if it’s just in the mind.
You have access to that place you speak of right now. It’s here. It’s teasing you, us! Just be and you’ll be there. Don’t allow your ego to confine your truly infinite being.