Looking at life: a teen vision

Doubtsof (@@mauricio10) 7 years, 7 months ago

At the age of fifteen I still question my likes and the things I guess I care about. For some people it may seem easy. Love family. Work hard. Get money. Have kids. Retire at 60´s. Die and pray for someone be on your grave the day of your death. Yeah, sounds creepy. Actually, I creep the shit out of me whenever I ask myself those questions. As far as I´ve got to know myself through all these years, I ask and attack my questions such as “What if I don’t get a job?” and “What if the day of my death I will realize I haven´t lived the way I wanted to?” All those what ifs live constantly with me all the days of my crazy life. But sometimes I try to forget ´bout all that crap and laugh a little.
Enough to not get mad.
But since I started high school I have questioned many things I have done, even why the hell am I doing in fucking school, due to I doubt myself this is the most important education I will ever receive in my life. Basically the rewards to school I have to give for their work, is essentially, none. That´s right, I consider myself, people learn out more of reading a freakin book in their lives than passing the next 25 years of your goddamned life encaged in a fuckin prison, adorned beautifully with the name school.
Besides that, it ain´t the most terrifying thing in my life, actually what it is: WHAT THE HECK DO I WANT TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND HOW AM I DOING IT?
Sorry for getting out of the topic, but… did you just notice what an impact a few letters joined together can do to you?
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, it scares me more than a fuckin book of Stephen King. And that´s a lot to say.
What I have really clear in mind is this:
1) One of my goals in life is undoubtedly being a polyglot. Oh my God, you don´t know how much I love languages. The art of speaking.
2) Till the end of times (or just my time) I shall say I will never desist on my most precious gift: READING. READING. READING. R-E-A-D-I-N-G. I adore the sweet and charming odor of books, the tips of my fingers going through every page and the worlds I travel to. It is simply amazing.

Those are two things (and only ones) I have fully clear in mind I want to reach in this life. Two simple things I know I won´t give up on. No matter what.

I have a confession to make: Life is incredible.
I have another confession: The thing is I haven´t totally learned how to appreciate that.

So, you might say “So, dude… You love life but don’t live it?”

Exactly, bro, that´s what I mean.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning, and feel really great, and then think I will accomplish a lot of things that day but I just end up roaming around my entire house being on my iPod and procrastinating. It´s horrible for me, but I am really fighting that. Seriously.

To end this, I really want to say something. I don’t know what you guys are really good at, I´d love to know and hope you tell me and I will be happy to read your answer, but I have realized that the quote “When you start doing things you love, you started to be free” has a really powerful meaning and I have found a little truth about it. And I feel free when I read. Free as the wind.

Free as the child in me.

December 29, 2014 at 11:37 pm
Ray Butler (1,423)M (@trek79) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

They say the best things in life are free, but that is only half true; free as in they may not cost you money but not free in the sense it is always hard work to sustain them. Arguably the greatest and most fulfilling thing in life is love or passion, but that is not just granted, it takes commitment and often the ability to survive great pain and frustration for those fleeting moments of ecstasy, but who would say the cost is not worth it? It is purpose in an otherwise non-connotative blank canvass of existence.

So how much shit do we need to pile on ourselves and how much shit do we unnecessarily pile upon ourselves? That is the Golden question of life, but we cannot expect anything of real worth to be granted painlessly, we should expect to get back what we put in, no more or less, but our inclination is to take more just as the inclination of others is, so it is a constant battle to be fair, fair in our contribution and fair to demand fairness from others.

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Marcel Nagel (6) (@marcel.nagel007) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Dude. I know where you are coming from with this. I understand you 100%. I used to read a lot. Used to, that is. I can’t seem to find any books that captivates me. (By the way, don’t stop writing.)

Want to tick me of in three words? Here goes.

Education, politics, religion.

The thing is, we are being thought how to think like people have been thinking for the past decade. How do you think the world is going to end up?

In the movie, Lucy, Professor Norman (Morgan Freeman) describes how living cells have one basic operation. To teach what it already knows. Look around. What is every human being doing. Their passing on knowledge. That’s right. Their rambling on things they already know to others, just so that person can ramble it off to next sucker *he comes across. (*She, actually. Woman are better at this.)

The point is. Be different. Fuck the rest. They know nothing! (Yes, John Snow, you know nothing.) Set the trend on new ideas. Show the world a new way of living and I promise you, soon enough they will follow your lead.

Here’s a quote from Steve Jobs: “Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Extreme, wild and a liberalist. Train of thought and mind over matter. Philosophy and physical discipline. Jack of all trade and master of some. That is a short summary of me since you asked.

One of my favorite things to do is to figure people out. Yes, I could be a great therapist, but I have no ambition to listen to people nagging about how god awful their lives are.

Allow me to demonstrate.

You, my dear friend, are extremely intellectual. You don’t like being told what to do and you probably feel like you’re mind can not be silenced. You have a strong desire to make your voice heard. I don’t know a lot about your social life, but since you referred to your iPod, I would guess that you like being alone with your music and thoughts. Crowds are a big no-no. You have the ability to be a great leader, but if you are anything like me, you don’t want to be one.

This is how I imagine you.

I encourage you to write more. Share your ideas and thoughts. I’ll be watching you. ;)

And one more thing, don’t EVER doubt yourself or let your dreams die! EVER! You are destined for greatness.

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Almeida (304) (@xetado) 7 years, 7 months ago ago

Hey, I can relate a lot to you. I had discovered HE at the age of 14, and it pretty much changed the way I look at life.
So, the problem is, you don’t know how to seize your day even though you love life? You seem to have an issue with creating habits.
First, you need to track and find what do you love. Easier said than done. Get some time to lie in bed and think about it. Write anything that comes to mind and reflect upon it afterwards. Although you said you like to read, it has to be more specific.
Then, you figure what habits lead you towards happiness, through the things you enjoy. Start small, don’t rush. Take notes, even a write a diary if you may. It’s hard to build something like that because it takes some time and effort, but it’s worth it.
Oh, and I love deep conversations, well written books about philosophy, sociology and politics, and quiet and relaxing places in nature.

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