Losing inspiration

green (@pamela) 9 years, 8 months ago

I´ve been drawing my whole life and I just had a terrifying thought: what if I´m doing this just to be good at something. I have stories in my head that I want to tell and I just decided comics are the way to go. I´m afraid that I actually hate drawing but I force myself to do it just to get the stories out.
I´m afraid that I force myself to draw just make myself special. There is nothing else that I´m good at, hell, I´m not even good at drawing. Maybe I draw just to seem interesting or to create smalltalk topics.
What I want to know from you is if you have similar experiences. Should I try something else? Is it just the idle side of me that keeps me from drawing? Any Thoughts?

May 31, 2012 at 10:33 am
STH (6) (@stharp) 9 years, 8 months ago ago

I guess it’s possible that you might “hate drawing,” but I wouldn’t bet on that. A common fear for artists of any kind is that they will never be good enough at their craft (to be accepted by peers, or earn a living at it, or whatever). That’s why it takes courage to be an artist. You don’t know if you can really make it until you do. That’s not easy and it can be discouraging.

But if you’ve been drawing your whole life, then acceptance by others or having something to talk about are not the reasons you started or still do it now. And I really doubt you hate it. Get frustrated with it? Sure. But obviously you love it on some level. I would suggest not worrying about it and just draw what you want to draw, always do your best, and keep getting better. If telling stories is the reason for doing it, keep telling stories. But draw to please yourself and others will follow when it’s time for that.

kenya (73) (@kanyaa) 9 years, 8 months ago ago

Are you just drawing to seem like a more intrsting person? You need really think…what do u lovee doing? Maybe you havent done it before so u dont know if your good at . But trust me u will find something thats just perfect foryou. Just get out there and experence life. I used to feel like u but i recantly found out my passion for rock climbing.
i think we all have our own destiny… lifes a climb i guess but the veiws great ;)
just be yourself and live your fucking life to the fullest!

Mike Wuest (510) (@mikeyw829) 9 years, 8 months ago ago

When you feel you’re done with something, just move on. Drawing isn’t a part of you, it shouldn’t make or break who you are and it doesn’t define you in any way. If it’s lost it’s luster, just move on. Happens to everyone, but most people continue to grasp at straws instead of allowing themselves to move on. I used to think that sports made me who I am up until a couple of months ago. It was hard letting go, but I did it because I was just done with it and felt it was right, even though it was tough at the time and for a while after. What’s the point in continuing something that you are no longer interested in? Just to uphold some false identity of yourself as an expressive artist? You might be expressive, and you might draw, but you are not an expressive artist. Just like I can play sports without making it who I am. And once I realized it isn’t who I am, that this was the only thing keeping me going, then I could let go. Disillusionment is tough in the moment, but it’s how you grow.

green (0) (@pamela) 9 years, 8 months ago ago

Well, I will try to draw something new and experiment but if still feels like a waste of time I will have to move on. We´ll see.
Thanks to you for your replies.

Anonymous (2,654) (@) 9 years, 7 months ago ago

I think you’re an idiot. Personally. My opinion, don’t be offended by someone’s opinion, be offended by the reason you are an idiot.

Don’t do or buy shit you won’t enjoy.

Tell me if it works well for you.

Ian (38) (@geryon89) 9 years, 7 months ago ago

so you want to be a writer?
by Charles Bukowski

if it doesn’t come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don’t do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
searching for words,
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it for money or
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it because you want
women in your bed,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit there and
rewrite it again and again,
don’t do it.
if it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,
don’t do it.
if you’re trying to write like somebody
forget about it.

if you have to wait for it to roar out of
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you’re not ready.

don’t be like so many writers,
don’t be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don’t be dull and boring and
pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-
the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to
over your kind.
don’t add to that.
don’t do it.
unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don’t do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don’t do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

Ian (38) (@geryon89) 9 years, 7 months ago ago

i realize that is about writing, but it’s the same idea. i suck at drawing but i do it a lot because i simply can’t NOT draw. personally i never show any of them to anyone because they are bad and just shit my head needs to work through and needs to get out. but keeping it to myself is an irrelevant decision.

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