Lately I have been lost in philosophical questions. I have stopped many daily routines to think more. I realized that I don’t have a reason for existence, nor have I had one. All of a sudden this fact became a big thing for me. Why don’t I have a reason for existence, why havent I had one, why is it important all of a sudden, what difference would it make if I had one.
After many hours of thinking I realized two things, would it be that if thte answer to this question was simple then my existence would be simple. And the second thing was that I enjoyed this madness, this self push towards deppression. Its not madness its beautiful. New questions arose with out any answers for the first. Who am I, what am I, where am I.
I don’t think I even want the answers, I want the questions. But I do want the answers. Am I looking for religion, something holy to give me all the answers. I dont think so. Know I ask myself what am I doing. I simply reply enjoying philosophy. But is that really what im doing. One question is actually the beginning of endless questions. I cant help but call its beauty madness. I want more philosophical questions to think about. The internet has many bullshit philosophical things sadly. I dont want a statement about how beautiful our plant is. This wont lead to thousands of chained questions. Anyways before everything I have realized that perspective is important. Thats why i woukd like to know what you think. Who ever you are.
—> written by me, a human product of todays society
Well, as a Christian, my life is all about living like Jesus lives. As an Adam/Man, my goal is to realize what it is to “be Adam/Man.” As a citizen of the United States, my goal is to better the United States. As a citizen of the world, my goal is to better the world. As a child of God, my goal is to live a life of perpetual worship with each and every action. I reap what I sow, meaning that karma deals with karma and all I have to do is smile, breathe, and be myself. The question is: Who am I to be?
Life can be seen as a play, and we are all actors. Play the role that God brought you here to play. In other words, play the role that you not only enjoy the most, but are the best at. Obviously that which is enjoyed most will be performed better and better over time.
Know that you are loved. If you see no purpose, yet, at least see purpose in saying, “I love you too” to the world, reminding them of the intrinsic love among us all.
@mehdi756, Had the same experience 5 months ago were everything hit me like a tsunami wave! How insane life is and how we have no idea what is before and what lies after! Completely blew my mind. Made me think in such a far out perspective that now I am stuck out here just watching life in a 3rd person view, er that’s at least how it feels!
@equel, “To repeat is to behave in a certain manner, but in relation to something unique or singular which has no equal or equivalent. And perhaps this repetition at the level of external conduct echoes, for its own part, a more secret vibration which animates it, a more profound, internal repetition within the singular. This is the apparent paradox of festivals: they repeat an ‘unrepeatable’. They do not add a second and a third time to the first, but carry the first time to the ‘th’ power.” by Gilles Deleuze,
From the perspective of others I am part of the world, but when I observe the world from my perspective I am nowhere to be found. To observe is to create perspective. I can never cease to be the point of origin from my perspective. I observe that which is not myself.
@hulklol, never thought of that
@kwelch5528, yeah im starting to feel like a 3rd person viewer
@adamsmith, did you find religion without influence from society as you were rasied. Dont get me wronge im not comparing ideas and religions but my parents raised me with the religion of islam and it was the same thing as a citizen better yout country as a human better the world as a creation worship god as a follower live like tge prophet. Ideally its to be “good” as society understands. So from the beginning of time we followed tge first understanding of good but what is truelygood.You didnt find god you were introduced to him by society
@mehdi756, I totally love that quote you just quoted.
Also, I was introduced to the character of Jesus by my Mom and Dad. My dad would read the Bible to me at night before I slept, and I always loved it. He passed when I was twelve, leaving me with a Bible and an insatiable desire for knowledge of God, or “God,” if you will.
When I was fourteen, I had my first experience with marijuana, which was awesome. Later, I had my first experience with mushrooms, where I realized that I AM Jesus, and that indeed we all are. To me, He is the personification of the Tao, or the Way. He is the perfect human, to me. Thus, speaking personally, He is my Way. Is he the Way for you? That’s for you to decide. One may discover the Way through experience. It is beyond books. It simply is. It is “isness” itself. It seems to be pure light, pure love. Perfect Love. Follow It! :D
I like to rant, forgive me. I always suggest a psychedelic experience to those who are seeking the meaning of it all.
@mehdi756, I understand. Muhammad says he enjoys the madness. Let him eat! The Qu’ran is pretty cool when read from a mystical perspective, as is the Bible, and all books for that matter. Hebrews 12:29 reads, “For our God is a consuming fire.” This makes so much sense to one who has gone on a safari through the twisting nether of psychedelia.
@mehdi756, Religion was invented so that people wouldn’t waste time thinking about questions that have no verifiable answer, it was invented to make people concentrate on productive endeavours, or at least be drones for the system.
I think your best questions would be: How can I get the most out of life? What should the intent of my actions be? How do I master self-control? How do I find the best application of deed? What do I gain from being considerate? What are my passions? Where are my priorities? Do I do my best at whatever I attempt? Do I make sure things make sense before I conform to them? Do I appresiate those in my life? Are people bad or do they just lack some sense or insight that cripples them empathically?
Happy Hunting :)
@drunkmonkmeth, funny I thought of that too and you could be right everytime I found a reason I would think deeper into it and then I would realize that if it was my reason I wouldnt think deeper into it
@trek79, your right because tge smarter people realized that not everyone is intelligent enough to observe and question while being productive. When I started questioning in this way it started with a couple thoughts a day, then it was almost every moment of the day, in class I would observe my classmates rather then pay attention to the professeur. Y hen I realized that only thinking is not acceptable in todays society if I want to continue to observe and qyestion I have to fit in , atleast that the way I see it
A subtle chain of countless rings
The next unto the farthest brings;
The eye reads omens where it goes,
And speaks all languages the rose;
And, striving to be man, the worm
Mounts through all the spires of form.
I have no concrete questions, existence itself is a question.
My question for you is what are you passionate about? What issues in the world really pull at your heart strings and make you wana do something about it? What unique talents do you have? If you wana find your purpose then start there. Everyone was put on this earth equipped with the right talents and interests to help them fulfill their purpose.
@mehdi756 i spent 3 years of my life pursuing nothing other than these questions and yes i completely dipped out of society for that time as well. i believe that for some individuals this is an inevitability in life if they are ever to find a truth and a happiness that fully satisfies. as it is, i’m just beginning to piece everything back together.
but let me start a bit further back. about 2 years ago i uprooted my entire life on the east coast and came to the heartland to find some solitude and space to think. now, looking back, that was an absolutely miserable experience and i would not advocate this to anybody. but do what you believe is right. you are the only truth in this world and until you realize this and can align yourself only with What Is, and not with What Was or What’s To Come you will not be able to understand your purpose. you are not great in yourself, as i am not either. but, with help and with LOVE you can find beauty in all that exists. and this, my friend – is purpose.
anyway. what i have found is that as a human, there are a few aspects to consider. first are your conscious rationale and emotional response patterns. separate them and dissect how they play off one another as well as how they unbalance one another. second are your subconscious proclivities (which i found to rely heavily on my ancestral lineage). third is your spirit/soul (whatever you care to deem it) beyond the confines of your physical body. and fourth would be your physical body in relation to all of these.
now, as i said, i don’t condone leaving everything you know in search of yourself, but in my case it was a necessity. what you may find interesting is that having been adopted with no information apart from the reason i was given up, i have managed to find ancestral roots somewhere deep in myself. i could not tell you if it was a force beyond me that was gracious enough to present me with this knowledge or if it was encoded deeply in my genes all along, but if i can do this – I KNOW ANYBODY CAN. but this is their mission. not yours or mine. remember that.
as i would call it:
stop worrying about time. stop worrying about your old life. embrace your family and friends and bring them on this journey if you can. but remember, this is a new beginning and this is YOUR LIFE. YOU follow your heart and at the very worst you die with no regrets.
@mwinship13 of course man.
do understand before we begin that my experience was a bit odd, so don’t automatically assume it’s your path. i’ll say that to start out i guess and that’s as big of a jackass that ill be in this entire post:
but it’s all the same space we’re searching for. it will just be a different journey for every individual. and personally, my uncertain ancestry played heavily into how things ended up working out.
but to summarize: i pretty much left all of my friends all of my family and all of my interests – went to kansas (transferred from an extremely liberal society to an extremely conservative society for added perspective) and just looked at myself. mentally. physically. emotionally. then i went a little deeper into myself and found some crazy down there. which i decided to let out in moderation and only as a catalyst for reason (very important sidenote). i held down a quiet job to pay for some bills and made acquaintances with one set of neighbors, but beyond that i completely took myself out of the picture and allowed myself to explore.
for me, it was a much needed step back in which i could take all of my perceptions interpretations philosophies and spiritualities of the world and try to boil them down into something that actually made sense to me AND fit the world.
now, i should make sure to mention that when i first started all of this i was not aware of why i was doing anything i was doing. i just did it. (no ancestral knowledge, no emotional knowledge etc)
i encourage you to find yourself. more-so than anything in the world. but know its gonna suck some seriously sour donkey dick if this is the way you’re going. just make sure you’re completely ready to take on the world if this is what you’re thinking of doing, because once things go black and white that’s exactly what you WILL be doing.
but i can promise you’ll appreciate the color so much more on the otherside!
now, (and i hope i’m not being too presumptuous) but if you have love in you, let that shine right now. i had to find love in the world to find it in myself. and i realize this won’t be the case for everybody. but if you can open up your heart things will be so much smoother and you can use the world to find yourself. but if you HAVE to find yourself, in yourself, i wish you all the luck in Ireland markll ; )