So I had my first experience with this at the beginning of the year. I don’t smoke all that often, and now I make sure I am with someone when I smoke. I have had amnesia for 15 to 20 minutes a couple of times while smoking. I don’t know if that is the right word for it, but I forgot who I was. I didn’t recognize anything surrounding me, and my boyfriend tried showing me pictures to help me remember. He even showed me a picture of myself and I denied it was me. I keep wanting to push myself to get close to the edge again and figure out what is going on. But the fear is I will lose myself and never come back. I want to see what is there. I do have borderline personality disorder, and I am trying to find myself. Is it really possible to have amnesia while high?
On the other hand I feel like I have found her sometimes, but I don’t know why she will not stay.
@violet Honestly, it is normal to have amnesia when you are high. I have been smoking for more than 12years and have experienced amnesia and short-term memory loss. I also have borderline personality disorder and become slightly more agreessive when high. I would say you are doing the right think by only smoking with others, but i would say if you have just started and are over the age of 25, i wouldnt advise you to continue if this was what you experienced on your first experience. Depending on the quality and variety of Marijuana you smoke different side effects can occur and can either trigger a more severe psychosis or can have a pleasant effect but you will not know until you try its a catch 22, smoke and experience or not smoke and never have the possibility of amnesia again.
Push if you feel the need to push.
You will not lose yourself since that is not what you want.
I have done this.
If you have borderline personality disorder you definitely shouldn’t be smoking weed. Taking any type of drug can worsen your disorder. You should start meditating, that’ll help you find out who you are. Weed is definitely not a good option for you. Everyone reacts differently.
Its not unusual to forget a lot in the beginning until you get used to the experience. However… as others said, using the sacred herb could be either a god send, or your downfall, depending on your intentions and usage. The fact that you mention you ARE trying to find yourself tells me it could be of use to you, helping you to heal past wounds and bring fragmented parts of consciousness back into your awareness. -The underlying cause for mental disorders. The problem with this is some times the herb can take you to places you are not quite willing to go and can cause you to shut down or have an episode, so you have to use your intention, keep calm and remember to breathe through each experience.
Keep in mind that using it to suppress emotions, or escape reality will make your life very difficult. It should always be used with the intention of understand thyself more.