This is a bit long, so sorry for you lazy people out there :)
A few weeks ago my friend and I took 9 pills of mushrooms which was apparently 4.5 grams of caps. We wanted to do this on a nice day and since there’s a state park near my house with a bunch of trails that leads down to a lake, we decided to do it there. There are three people in this story, me, my friend “P” who tripped with me, and my friend “G” who dropped us off. Without further or do, here is how the trip went:
We set up camp on a picnic table, dropped the pills, and tossed the Frisbee around for about 15 minutes. We then sat down and ate some fruit. As I was eating I could feel a hint of the psilocybin. I was slightly nervous for some reason so decided to stop eating and lay down. After about 10 minutes of lying there, I rolled over and puked. After I puked I felt 10x better. My friend was watching all of this unfold and looked pretty upset. I told him it was fine and there was nothing to worry about, but I could tell something was off. P was a little anxious so we decided to go walk around. Once we started walking, that is when I knew I was fully tripping. The ground was slightly moving and the trees looked like faces that were “calling” to me. We walked down to a fire pit that was built by boy scouts. This fascinated me. I began to tell my friend about High Existence and how meditation has helped me in so many ways and how he should try it too. I felt like a shaman trying to help my friend with his trip. I knew I was in complete control of mine, as is everyone, and that comforted me.
We then decided to walk down a trail; this was not the best idea. P was leading the way and stumbled across a bench and decided to take a break. In front of us was this vast forest filled with trees, flowers, green everywhere, it was gorgeous. P was still uncomfortable, so we headed back up. This time I led the way. I could feel the difference in between following and leading. I almost felt less comfortable being the leader. On the way up, I started to freak out a little, probably because of how steep it was, but that only lasted for about ten seconds. Finally, we reached the top and headed back to our home base. Once we sat on the bench that is when it REALLY hit me.
I turned towards the forest but mainly focusing on the grass. Everything was in columns, beautiful columns. Each column had symbols all over them and were slowly rotating back and forth, as if everything in the universe was interconnected on a much deeper level. I sat, observing the columned universe, trying to take it all in. After 10 minutes or so I grabbed my towel and lied down. I closed my eyes and the very second I did I entered another world. On my left was this large, rotating object that seemed to consist of multiple colorful circles. In front of me was this large abyss that rotated with everything else. I always wanted something like this to happen, but I was too focused on P. He didn’t seem to be having as good of a time as I was. He was lying down with his face in his arms and I knew I couldn’t do much so I returned to my inner world. When I returned I saw four ghostlike, trippy looking people. It was my family. It didn’t look like my family, but I knew it was. I then tried to meditate, but I was way too focused on P. I then decided to get up and take off my shoes. The second I took off my socks I had an instant feeling of relief. I went over to P and told him to do the same. I could tell he was feeling much better now. We both talked for a while about what we had seen. We then decided to walk around.
As we were walking we stumbled across two men who were walking at a fast pace.This was curious to me seeing how we have our entire lives ahead of us, why hurry? What was even more interesting was the conversation with each other. It was almost as if they were acting, wait no, they were acting. We then went into the public bathroom. When we entered my friend mentioned 2001: A Space Odyssey. When he mentioned this it felt like the entire bathroom was a spaceship and I could see us traveling through space and time…and then it hit me. We are traveling through space! Right now, at this very moment, we are on one giant organic spaceship.There is no up and no down! My up could actually be down! How fucking bizarre is that? P left the bathroom and was outside waiting for me. As I opened the door I had this sensation of déjà vu. I knew I had dreamt this before, in fact, I still know I did. I didn’t dwell on it much though at the time for this has happened to me several times.Anyways, we then walked barefoot to our base and for the next hour or two I went on a gigantic, mind-boggling rant about how fucking crazy and bizarre life is. It ranged from the 2012 conspiracy to time, to life itself, to consciousness, to people interacting with one another, to language, to religion, to meditation, to basically everything we talk about at High Existence. My friend literally said maybe two words throughout this. He just sat intensively listening to me. Once I finished, P put on some tunes. The visuals had subsided, but when the symphony called ‘The Planets’ began to play, everything started to move once again, but this time with the music. I believe I was experiencing synesthesia.
My friend G arrived and we walked down to the lake. We put on some music. P and G sat on a log and talked while I danced around, skipped some rocks, meditated, and felt like I could conquer the world. When I was looking at the water I began to think about how something millions of miles away is controlling the source of life itself, water. How fucking insane is that? Not only is that crazy, but we too are made mostly out of water! It made me feel the interconnectedness of the universe even more; it was like everything is playing a role.
Sorry for how long this is. Thank you if you read it!
I love you guys, peace.
It is difficult in leading a group while under the influence. You must ask yourself – is it the right thing to lead, rather than to let be, or even follow? Who am I to deeply influence people in such a vulnerable state?
I have wondered this myself. Sometimes I take great joy when someone chooses to lead, sometimes I take great pride in being the leader.
I’m glad yours an P’s trip was smooth sailing. P seems to have much to figure out.
This is a really awesome story, definitely sparked some new ideas in my head. Along with feeling more enlightened, I have a desire to experience a trip like the one you had. I’ve never done psychedelics, so it’d be a first. Sounds like an amazing adventure you had, thanks for sharing!
that is beautiful, Eric, you are on to something. I wonder though if you really used this opportunity to explore, to search for that tether between the earth and yourself that allows you to connect with eachother, I’d say it’s worth a looksee
@blankey, Very awesome trip report. Sounds like you guys were able to find an ideal location, which has been a bit of a challenge for me.
One of my favorite things about your story was towards the end, how you said you could feel like you can conquer the world. I’ve felt that way too on shrooms, like, if I am the one creating my own reality, then I feel like some kind of deity, or at least a human avatar of one. Shrooms always reinforce that feeling of immortality to me, because I always completely lose a sense of time. I feel genuinely disconnected from the flow of aging and time, I feel that instead of being reality’s slave, it is instead my plaything. Damn! I love that feeling. Can’t wait for a nice summer day when all is in bloom, a good location, good music, friends who are down, and some sweet sweet psilocybin
@blankey, I believe I was experiencing synesthesia.
Definitely :) And it’s there always, just under the layer of ‘common’ experience.
Great story, try to remember the feeling/sense every time before you meditate, in this way you let your body remember and you can train on holding on to that new perspective. Which is hard because technological reality catches up quickly.
@martijn, Are you talking about trying to hold onto the sense of synesthesia? If so, I have pretty much already forgotten the feeling. Sadly, I just remember everything moving with the music, not too sure how it happened.
@theskafish, Yeah it was a great location! Few minutes from my house, has a lake, a beautiful monastery, which I don’t think I mentioned and yeah. Once you find that spot, you’re golden. Set and Setting is everything.
@reneeguthreau, If you feel ready, I say go for it! Take a lowish dose, maybe two grams just to get used to the feeling. Set and setting is everything so make sure you find some close friends and a place you feel comfortable at. Try to meditate and have an amazing time! :)
@hlalhabattu, @ijesuschrist, Indeed. Next time I think I’ll trip on my own or try to only focus on myself. Not to be egotistical, but I would love to explore my consciousness on mushrooms for this time I was not able.
@Everyone, Thanks for reading and leaving a comment, means a lot. :)
I’ve never tried shrooms. They sound great though. I had some in my possession recently but I didn’t use them. I’m gonna wait till the summer.
@blankey, Just actively try to remember it, the sounds, the smells, the experience. Then find out if you can find anything, anything at all, and use that as a focus. Maybe faint in the beginning, but you can work it. If not, it’s a great exercise in looking. :)
He wrote this blog post on it :)
@blankey, Yes, I am starting to see colors when concentrating on the different chackra’s. Some are really faint, some I can’t really distinguish, and it depends on a day to day basis. But there is definitely a whole inner space to explore. I’ve also starting to connect scents with memories more and emotions with thoughts. And I’ve had the visuals while listening to music.\, which seems to be quite standard.
(In fact, all our experiences are inherently synesthiastic)
@krim98, I hope one day to start a HEthen university/retreat/work+explore space center with lot’s of training and sacremental use of psychedelics.
I am wondering what these ‘pills of mushrooms’ are. I only know mushrooms/truffels as they are (the real thing) and I only did half a portion once (at home). Your experiences sound great though and it seems so much more interesting to do this outside rather than inside, because you can really connect to nature.
Nice story, thanks for sharing!
@eric Wow. Really touching. (if that makes sense).
I’ve never tried shrooms, although i wanted to, but won’t, (i’m past that phase of “drugs”). I like what I read, seems like you really connected with nature and true forces.
I love life so much right now, I feel like that sober…idk how that is possible, but everything fascinates me…. i do wonder what I would have experienced if i did shrooms… i heard awesome stories of trips of others.
I’m not a fan of substance use, anymore, but i can relate to how amazing a trip can be if you’re in the right place with the right people. good to know you had a good time, although your buddy P didn’t seem to enjoy himself as much as you did. his loss :-/
@karolina, I don’t constitute mushrooms as a drug. I would categorize it as an experience with yourself. nature, and the universe.
It is a part of life that shows you the hidden the realities that are constantly present. I think everyone should try psychedelic mushrooms at least once in their life, for you do only live once.
That’s just my opinion though, do what you want :)