My source of anxiety (currently)

James (@ilooklikeawaterbottle) 9 years, 6 months ago

I have known for a few months now that my ultimate source of anxiety is marijuana. I have smoked it consistently for a few years now and have definitely experienced anxiety from it int he past, not much though. Now it is at the point where i do not enjoy using it anymore. i am confident that if i quit using it completely, not sure how long it will take, i will again be able to enjoy it again in the future.

I just wanted to let everyone know that this evening will be my first sober night that i will have experienced in a few months. i am excited but i really miss the way i used to feel when i smoked. i know i will get that feeling back, its almost as if i fell out of my enlightenment.

Has anyone else here had a similar experience? Advice?

June 5, 2012 at 8:09 am
Dustin (32) (@dobbyfisher) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

good luck buddy.

don’t think of it as falling from enlightenment. You could drop acid all day and be even more ‘enlightened’, but synthetic enlightenment is only temporary. Try to enjoy your natural sober mind, even if it is less fun it is more you.

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The_truth_is_ (91) (@sirensetmefree) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@ilooklikeawaterbottle, Pick up a hobby. Build something, man. When I first started giving up alcohol (I don’t drink anymore), I found that it helped me stay away from the stuff if I was building or fixing something. I cleared off my desk and got some sand paper and started fixing all the small dents and stuff. I took off all the soda can-rim stains and things like that. I felt so much better. I did it only for a bit but was able to go the rest of the day without alcohol. I did the same thing for a few days and it always helped. Then I started putting finish on it and stuff like that and that helped too.

Keep yourself occupied. Put your mind to something useful. It centers the shit outta people.

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Michael (30) (@mikey) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I am in the same boat! Mj causes me massive anxiety/panic attacks. It actually feels like there is an elephant sitting on my chest, and I freak the fuck out. I smoked heavily for about 10 years straight. And it was mostly high grade shit. I have been doing research that if you were a heavy smoker it may take up to 6 months to feel like your old self again. I didn’t think weed was that bad, until I tried to give it up. Depression, no motivation, insomnia, but I am feeling better already and its only day 4. But good luck man, I know you can do it!

And also if you like reading, it will help a lot to get lost in a good book.

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James (100) (@ilooklikeawaterbottle) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@mikey, i love reading man, and reading is something i cant do when im stoned, keep me posted on how things go for you and ill do the same. i never smoke until the evenings, and i usually have awesome days, tons of energy and joy, then when i decide to smoke, i freak out, haha, its not fun. good luck buddy

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ZionBorn (89) (@irievibes) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I used to get anxiety from cannabis. Then I realized it wasn’t the cannabis giving me the anxiety, it was myself. It was making me face my own problems and by trying to suppress it, I got plagued by negative thoughts.

Then, when I actually took care of those problems in the real world, (all the tasks I worried about completing, paying bills off, etc,) I finally found some relief. Now when I smoke I focus on the positive things and I’m getting incredible highs with beautiful moments of clarity.

You gotta take care of yourself before Mary can take care of you. Real Talk.

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ZionBorn (89) (@irievibes) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@mikey, Those “withdrawal” feelings your getting always leave me in 2 or 3 days, so it makes sense you are feeling better already. It isn’t hard to stop smoking bud once you break day 4.

Quitting caffeine is WAYYY harder. I feel sick as hell for like a week or more when I stop my daily coffee routine.

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Fluxface (32) (@fluxface) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I´ve been through the same. So i stoped smoking for a year and realized i had a lot of shit to get throught and that i was only delaying it by been cought up in the rythm of haze.
Now i smoke again, but the difference is that now i only do it occationaly and with no anxiety what so ever.
My idea of what caused the anxiety was that i smoked over and over again when my brain was telling me that I needed to stop to launch a new period of development.

This may not be your problem but I think it´s worth to mention anyway:
Training to see your own excuses is fundemental for development. Everyone I have ever known, including myself, makes excuses witch justifies they`re own acts.. Or as Freud said it: The more we know about our own unconscious, the less will it demonise us. Either you tell, or get told.

Learn to recognize your own needs and do something about them.
Hope this can help you.

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James (100) (@ilooklikeawaterbottle) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

thanks for the great advice everyone! i will keep you posted on how things go, i am not going to smoke for a few weeks then i will reassess my situation

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yoinkie (1,498)C (@yoinkie) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I gotta say, I disagree with a lot that has been said here. Smoking marijuana/stopping smoking doesnt cause depression, lack of motivation, or anxiety. It only amplifies the problems you have when you are sober, because smoking weed makes you really sit there and evaluate your life. Depression from stopping is completely 100% mental, there is no withdrawels. The reason you are feeling depression is because you are so use to smoking and having that part of your day that you just feel great(when you are stoned), that now that you stopped smoking you are feeling depressed as a result. Completely mental, its not marijuana causing that. You would go through the same thing if you had a banana every single day, and then stopping it. Withdrawels are completely mental too, for the same reason I said above, that you are so use to smoking that you feel like you want that again.

@irievibes, I agree with you, smoking is amplifying your life problems, and that should never be used as a negative against marijuana, rather a positive. If you need to, fix or try and fix your problems before you go back to smoking regularly. Smoking weed wont fix any of your problems. Ive been smoking everyday for 11 years now, except a one year break I had 4 years ago because of legal issues. During that year I missed smoking, sure, but I didnt have any withdrawels or any of the feelings associated with quiting hard drugs or alcohol. Its all mental, control your mind, control your anxiety.

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Eric (1,819)M (@blankey) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

“Once you get the message, hang up the phone.” – Alan Watts

This goes for any psychedelic, including marijuana.

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Fluxface (32) (@fluxface) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@yoinkie, How people experience this is completly subjective.. And stoping can be one way to learn to control the anxiety.

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Michael (30) (@mikey) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@yoinkie, I used to think the same exact shit man. That there was no such thing as weed with drawls, but how can you explain the insomnia I have been having, and the crazy amount of sweating I have been doing. Weed withdrawls are very real for me, and I am not saying everyone will have a these symptoms. Like fluxface said everything is completely subjective. I do agree with you that it is mostly mental, and that’s why keep your mind off the subject of smoking does help tremendously. I am not saying weed is as bad a herion and alcohol, but its still a mind altering substance and can be abused like in my case.

@Eric, thanks man. I really dig Alan Watts and that is something I needed to hear.

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James (100) (@ilooklikeawaterbottle) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

In my first post, i said that marijuana is my ultimate sorce of anxiety. That is false, my anxiety comes from other areas of my life, which i must overcome. Marijuana just triggers anxiety/panic attacks.

thanks for everyone’s input especially @blankey

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TEDMoseby (8) (@redpuck26) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I get this to. The first year or so I smoked, I loved it and I could do it socially at parties. Then after a while I stopped being able to communicate or talk, and I would get nervous at parties. To this day I still get anxiety from it. What the fuck.

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uronlyblackfrend (1) (@uronlyblackfrend) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

Its funny that i stumbled upon this topic. because i, myself have had alot of trouble with weed in the past. Ive been smoking heavily for about 4 years now. And i went through both high and lows with anxiety. I decided just today to stop also, im hoping maybe this will help

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James (100) (@ilooklikeawaterbottle) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

@uronlyblackfrend, @redpuck26, just keep this thread going and keep us up do date with how things are going, i plan on not smoking at all for one month, which is going to be very tough, i really like to smoke when im hiking or fishing, but i think i can still do everything when im not stoned, and then after a month im going to go to the top of a mountain and get on the same level as the mountain, and see how i feel, ill let yall know

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TheSkaFish (962)M (@theskafish) 9 years, 6 months ago ago

I find this happens to me, with pretty much any substance, be it marijuana, drinking, shrooms, whatever. It makes me realize I am only using the substances to put things off, to make excuses for myself to stay within my comfort zone instead of facing my fears and goals…that being said, I think I’ll be able to enjoy them again once I’ve achieved something.

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uronlyblackfrend (1) (@uronlyblackfrend) 9 years, 5 months ago ago

@ilooklikeawaterbottle, Im a film student so i love watching movies high, at least two a night.
Movies havent been as – how should i put this – “magical” as they used to be, but my cognition of the more technical side has been much easier to notice, I still love movies, and i find that i have been more creative since i stopped smoking. I have to agreee with the new period in my life, i can’t keep doping myself up and hiding. Im too young to live in a world of smoke and haze. Its the period in my life and maybe some of yours as well to look past the simplicities of the world and to discover something worthwhile.

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Adam Wilson (0) (@Adamctwilson) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

Hey everyone! I stumbled across this thread on Google and it’s been brilliantly reassuring to read the posts.

I’ve consistently smoked cannabis for years now and had nothing but amazing experiences, until last Christmas where I developed anxiety and panic attacks for the first time. It scared the life out of at the time but now I have a much greater understanding of how the brain works for or against you.

In honesty, my anxiety started after snorting cocaine for 6 days straight and I’ve never fully recovered from it. Smoking cannabis flares it back up and it’s a real shame. I can’t quite work out what the underlying cause of my anxiety is, but hopefully it comes to me in a moment or clarity soon.

Whenever I’ve read online forums about anxiety it does nothing but drill fear, however this thread has been nothing but reassurimg and it truly makes a difference to those with anxiety.

So thanks everyone :)

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