Let’s see; last friday night i bought an eighth of shrooms that were described to me as, “fuckin flame”, the way they were described should have given it away. Before I get into the trip i just need to say that I am very experienced with psychedelics,(i have a 7 gram trip under my belt as well as a 7 hit acid trip) i thought i could handle it, but it turned out to be the most intense experience i have ever had. Now remember, fuckin flame.
The bag was mostly caps, and they were big caps, so I knew that this was going to be a visual trip. I was excited and ate the whole bag in just a few handfuls with some red kool-aid.
I could feel the effects immediately start to spin me around and blur my vision. For about two hours the effects were slowly creeping up on me, melting on me, and getting extremely visual. After I smoked two really fat bowls with lots of keif, I was at my peak. My visuals were so intense that I didn’t know if my eyes were open or not (we were outside on a very dark night). It got crazy when I realized, because of my body high, that I was everything. Thats all I could think. I am everything… When touched my body visuals exploded out of my eyes into the physical world. “This is it”, I thought, “I’m dead”. That was it, emptiness, the elusive goal of my meditations over the last 8 months. My mind was working so fast that I could not see the beauty in front of my face. I figured out time and space, that we are all made of infinite universes inside an infinite universe. Then I got scared, being attached to this world made me feel pain and fear. My Mom will be so sad? What is going to happen to my body that is back there in the truck with two innocent people? Wait, i’m not dead! It’s the shrooms. But what if I do die because of the shrooms? So I had to leave and get home to my own bed so that i could write my final will and testament to everyone i loved, and then die. But since I had just experienced nirvana I was enlightened and I realized what death was and I was no longer afraid.
I am still not afraid.
I woke up the next morning and could not stop thinking about it. I did not feel bad (surprising!). And I was happy because I have been given the joy of life. A life that was in jeopardy the night before. And although it was the most terrifying experience of my life, it has given me new meaning. And the Buddhas outlook on life.
@rizzle, nice description! I pretty much had the same experience last time I had DMT in my system. I put too much in the bong, I realized that when I exhaled the smoke and immediately got pulled into another dimension. I had it all. Ego death, loss of feeling of time. It was the most beautiful and most horrifying experience ever since I thought I am lost in this world of ultimate consciousness (just call it like that) forever. One thing that kept me thinking for a while when I was “sober” again (which was objectively after 4 minutes and subjectively after 2 months): What the heck caused me to have such an hyper intense experience? Was it really just a system overload in my brain or did I really have access to some other world of reality (or whatever you may think of). As a neuroscientist I of course tend to the first one but…but…the latter one just makes so much more sense from the subjective experience point of view. what do you think?
@nobody,After that trip i would have to say that it is just chemicals, but in the words of Dumbledore, “of course its happening in your head.. why should that mean it isn’t real.” If anything those chemicals power whatever mystical wheels that power a collective conscience formed by the bond of all the atoms and subatomic particles found within everything. My headspace was full of atoms that night. I was thinking of everything infinite space and infinite big bangs within everything.
The trip felt very much like DMT
that surprisingly easy to read. that’s awesome man, I’m not as experienced with psychedelics but I’ve been meditating for over a year now, pretty much everyday.
I’ve had similar ego deaths / nirvana experiences, one induced by a fat blunt, and the other by some mushrooms in Amsterdam.
isn’t it crazy how for whatever reason it was THESE mushrooms THIS time, even thought you’ve take longer doses before and several times before.
yes, psychedelics may induced revelations but I don’t believe they are necessary for revelation. thoughts?
@lesterxp, What would you describe as nirvana? I definitely think many beings have experienced it, whether it be only for a little while. I (and apparently many other hethens) have experienced the state of complete bliss/oneness so i would have to disagree with that. Unless true nirvana is on a level that we dont even know about :p
Also i definitely agree you dont NEED psychadelics to experience such mysticalness (probably not a real word but it works lol) but i do believe they are here purposefully to help humanity experience/transform to higher consciousness.